OMFG

Yeah, that was my first reaction this morning when the guy who I barely know apart from he lives in the same apartment building with me, knocked on my door and asked if he can use my phone to call his friend in Australia. As a good neighbor, of course, I let him. Besides, it could’ve been me who is in his position, so yeah. After finished made a phone call, he was like introduced himself once again and was like, “I couldn’t ignored the fact that you were a pretty girl, so can I take you out for lunch?” I was like, “What the F…! Are you freaking serious?”

Okay, let me explain to you which part of this incident that actually bothered me so much. First of all, he came to my apartment to borrow my phone, and over my generosity, I let him making that call to Australia while he can easily goes to any paid phone to do so, but instead of say thank you, he asked me out. Second of all, he looks like he could be a hundred and eighty years old himself. Oh my flipping God, I really admire his gut, ha! But the other thing that bother me even more was when I turned him down and said that am very-very super serious busy, he was like, “What about tomorrow?” Then of course, I said the same thing, it’s not that am lying or anything, but I really do have so many things to do. Guess what, he was like, “Can you think about it first? I’ll comeback tomorrow and ask you again.” Wow! That’s my friend, what I call determination! I’ve got to pay him some credits for that.

Alright, am not going to talk about those boring stories here as I think that was kind of lame topic to discuss in my ‘oh so cool’ blog, so yeah, let me back to the original idea of what I was going to talk about here. If you a guy who, let say in your middle age timeline, would you prefer to date young girl or you prefer to pick someone in your age range? How old is too old? What age differences would make a date an OK according to normal standard? By saying normal standard here, I do mean normal people. Am not talking about Donald Trump, The Hef or Hollywooders here as they were from another planet, so of course, they can date anyone or anything they want, ha!

But, as for regular everyday people like us, how do we work these age gaps between men and women in our day to day life? I mean, a few years back, I met a much way too young guy who asked me out but I turned him down as I was afraid of society punishment if I said yes. I mean, he was like ten years younger than me, but the truth is, I was kind of fell for him in my heart even though my common sense told me to forget about it. So heart broken back then. We didn’t speak for almost a year afterward as he was so upset because of my decision to go with my head over my heart.

Don’t get me wrong, but yeah, you can call me old fashioned or conventional, but to be labeled as a cougar was never proud me at all. I have so many friends dated much younger guy but I was never going to follow their steps whatsoever. But then, there was one thing that actually caught my attention so bad. Why did they have a label for women who dated much younger men while when it happens to be the other way around they were like OK and take that as something cool? Seriously, I really don’t get it. I mean, even though when a much older woman seeing a much younger man, but it was normally the man who made the first move. For some reasons, if a much older woman asked first then she was a cougar, but in the other hand, if a much older man did it, instead of becoming a pervert, then he was a cool guy. How was that happened? Totally confuse.

But as a woman myself, I was actually amazed seeing how guys are so confident with their age and never see them as a boundary. If they like someone they just go for it and never consider anything else while girls were totally the opposite. We were like so obsessed with our age and what the society is going to say if we went out with much younger guys. So not cool. And that’s my friend, what I call lame!

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Was I Good?

Forgive me guys, but I have to write about this as I found it was hilarious when a guy asked a girl, "Was I good?" after their night together. I mean, seriously? How do you expect a girl to react to that question? By saying 'no dude, you were suck!' or just simply lie? Here is the thing and this is a little fact that I found recently, guys were often to be intimidated by their own performance in bed hence their needs for acknowledgment. For some kind of egoist reasons, they want their girls to say out loud how good they were in bed. And that believe it or not, on some guys, determined their self esteem.

Okay, here is another thing, girls are actually need acknowledgments as well but it was for a different reason. Girls, or at least girls in general, were normally want to know whether they were good or not in bed just so they know whether they made their men happy or not while guys want to know it for their self confident. What a selfish thing to do, but after all, that what makes the different between these two opposite sexes, right? Oh well, that is according to Doctor Dewi, ha!

A few years back, I was with a guy who had this slightly problem with his self confident therefore he was like always text me the next day after our sleepover and asked if he was good or not. And let me tell you a funny thing that happened on my first night sleepover at his place. As an OCD girl, it wasn't that easy for me to sleep in someone else's bed, so yeah,even though he was my boyfriend at that time and I often found myself spent the night in anyway, but since that was my first officially sleepover then I was kind of nervous. I had this some kind of anxiety attack. So yeah, when he was out to see his friend who happened to have a birthday party that night at a bar nearby his house, I took a sleeping pill from his drawer and had it. All that I can remember after that was waking up at 3 AM not knowing where am I. So weird and all that I want on that particular moment was my bed and my room but I couldn't find my car keys to get me home and my psycho thought said that it was my boyfriend who hide them. But since I wasn't myself because of the pill and was too tired to argue, so yeah, I just went back to bed instead.

Then of course, I was kind of having a 'huh?' moment when the next day my boyfriend text me and asked if I had a good time last night? Seriously guys, right on that second, I tried so hard to remember everything that happened not even 24 hours ago yet, but failed. I totally lost my time between 9-3 that night. My head was completely blank. But since he was waiting for my answer and I don't want to hurt his ego, so yeah, I lied and said that it was my best night ever. I know, am a bad girl, but as I mentioned above, how do you expect a girl to react to that question? It was kind of tricky question, you know? Wrong answer can cost you your sex life like forever, ha! But yeah, even until now, I still don't remember what happened that night but the guy is still in believing that it was my best night.

Alright, enough about my experience, I don't want to give anyone a wrong perspective about me, but yeah, the fact that guys were often to be intimidated with their performance in bed as they were often determined their ego and proud on it. One thing guys forget is that girls are normally don't really care. I mean, of course we will be happy if our guys performed as a monster in bed, but if they don't then we'll deal with it. Girls are normally tend into canoodling thing. So as long as you remember to kiss and hold us after, we will be more than happy. Seriously, don't you know it already? That was the reason why we fake the orgasm at first place, just so you guys thought that it was so freaking great then we will get kisses and cuddles afterward. Ha!

Okay, let be serious now, my point is actually about how vulnerable guys can be when it comes to bed department compare to girls. I mean, guys were always need girls' approving about their sex performance while girls were wisely knew about it already hence our faking thing just to keep the guys happy. But, my question to all of the girls is, if your guy ask you whether he was good or not in bed while he was indeed terrible, what would be your answer to that? Would you tell him how suck he was or you just simply lie?

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I Swear

Hm, how do I start this? Last night on Facebook, I joined a fans battle during the Blackburn and Manchester United game on English Premiere League where Man United secured the 19th league title triumphed Liverpool's record. For those who don't know, fans battle is an application where every fan can join and send comment during the game. As the title said so, of course, when you send comments to opposite team's fans, you go bananas. Hey, that's the idea, right? To mock other team's fans and Put their spirits down. Then yeah, I don't see anything wrong when everyone including myself were using the prohibit language (if you want to put it that way) to express their excitement. F**k yeah! After all, it's football and no one expected to be polite on the field, doh!

But when the heat was on triggered by Emerton's goal which took Blackburn on the hot spot by leading the game 1 to 0, the comment between sixteen Blackburn fans and two hundreds something Manchester United fans became very intens. This actually, when the rough language came out and for me, to be honest, turned to something fun. But, did everyone has the same feeling with me? Um, not so much. There were few of them felt intimidated with the language we used then tried to warned us. I mean, one of them even threat to report us if we keep using that F word. Wow, qseriously dude? Where did you come from? The Politeness planet? Ha!

Now, here is the thing, for those who claimed themselves as football fans, let me tell you

something here. Football is about excitement and you will not feel the great excitement until you know the great swearing words. Seriously, when one of the player did something that you find was hard to approve, how the heck would you show your feeling? By politely scream? Yeah, right! That is so totally gay. Excuse me people, am not a type of person who swear on daily basis, but, when I watch football and when I drive, I do. I mean, those two activities are the most exciting and intriguing activities for my consideration therefore I need to express my feeling freely. One of my way to do that is by swearing. For example, when I got cut off by some reckless driver on the street, how do you expect me to react to this? By swearing, of course! Once when I was driving with my ex and thing like that happened and I was like, "Where the hell is f**king indicate, you bloody stupid ding dong!" Seriously, my ex was surprised as I was always happened to appear as a very sensible girl to him, until he saw me driving and when we watch football together. I mean, on the game I call the players named such as poof, faggot, b*tch, all of the prohibit words that I can find. Then I will be happy and calm down. So yeah, first my ex was kind of shocked as I was normally picked up on him whenever he swears, but afterward he was like, "You tell them, darling!" Ha!

Back to the battle I mentioned above, these some people who were there to join it were literally complained about the harsh language we used. I was like, knock it off, man! I mean, during an important game like that, the less thing you need to worry about was the language. I mean, who cares if Rooney swear again to the camera, who cares if I said Emerton is a pain in the A, who cares if someone said that Santa Cruz is a poof, who the heck cares? All that we should care about is the game and how to shut the other team fans up. After all, this thing is called fan battle, isn't it? I noticed that most of the fans who kept brought the language thing up were actually girls. Maybe that's why they said that girls and football don't really make a good combination, they're only good for SWAG. Doh!

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My Paul Ropp Experience

A few years back, when I just moved in to Bali, I have no idea whatsoever about Bali local brands. Over a rush last minute shopping with friends on a new year’s eve chaos, we then stranded in this eye catching shop somewhere in Kuta Square. As someone that grown up in a big city such as Jakarta, I was always tended to be brand oriented. Everything has got to be internationally well-known brand. But, since we were in hurry and we were currently in Bali, what choice do we have?

Entering this colorful shop, for some reasons I got this some kind of calmness in mind. The shop was very sophisticated in a Zen meaning. Then when the time to pick our clothes came, first I was a little bit sarcastic. I mean, my first impression was, these designs are way too ethnic for me. I was never considering myself as someone who wears tribal designs ever. So not me, but, since we have no choice so my friends and I eventually took the most simple designs that we could find then tried them on. Voila!

That was my reaction when I put the dress on. The design was indeed ethnic and tribal, but it was fabulous. One thing I noticed that time was how comfortable the dress was and how pretty I looked in it. I mean, never in a million time I would’ve thought that am going to look that great in something ethnic. As a big city girl, my style was used to be boring in black, white, and grey colors. Unlike in the island, we don’t really added color in to our outfits. But that was before I’ve been introduced to Paul Ropp.

Ever since that rush shopping experience which I called “My Paul Ropp Experience”, I now officially in love with this thing called island’s living. As Paul Ropp’s motto “Clothes for People That Want to Be Naked” the designs are really feel that comfort and make you feel so naked. It really brings the 60’s back with its hedonism way of life and bohemian style. As someone who was never considered as an island girl, surprisingly, I am now proud to say that I love this colorful island style and I thank Paul Ropp for that.

I Speak No Americano

It's been more than a week now since the founder and spiritual figurehead for al Qaeda, Osama bin Laden, pronounced dead after he was killed in a firefight with elite American forces on Monday last week, then quickly buried at sea in a stunning finale to a furtive decade on the run. Long believed to be hiding in caves, Osama was tracked down in a costly, custom-built hideout not far from a Pakistani military academy. U.S. helicopters ferrying elite counter-terrorism troops into the compound identified by the CIA as bin Laden's hideout -- and back out again in less than 40 minutes. Osama was shot in the head, officials said, after he and his bodyguards resisted the assault.

"Justice has been done," President Barack Obama said in a dramatic announcement at the White House while a crowd cheered outside and hundreds more gathered at ground zero in Manhattan to celebrate the news. I still remember watching the news on that particular morning and listened to Obama speech saying that the war against terrorists has nothing to do with Moslem as Americans were never having any issue with Islam whatsoever. Islam was never considered as terrorist as Obama emphasized in his statement on that so called glorious day.

Then last weekend on Saturday morning, I was shocked by an early morning headlines on CNN talking about two Imams from Memphis Arabic University had been discharged from their flight for security reason. The incident occurred Friday on an Atlantic Southeast Airlines flight from Tennessee to North Carolina and it involved Masudur Rahman and Mohamed Zaghloul were wearing traditional Muslim dress, CNN affiliate WCNC reported. The two -- who hold high religious positions in the Muslim community -- were headed to North Carolina for a conference on prejudice against Muslims, or Islamaphobia. The meeting is sponsored by the North American Imams Federation. An airline is investigating the removal of two imams from a flight headed to North Carolina, ostensibly because passengers felt uncomfortable with their presence of the pair -- both clad in Islamic attire.

I mean, seriously...this should not happen to anyone in any reason. Especially in a country who claimed themselves as a free country as the United State of America. These two guys went passed security checked, even went through a secondary security, got on the plane but then taxiing out as the authority of the airport who escorted them explained that the pilot the pilot refused to fly with them because passengers were uncomfortable with them. Then the TSA (Transportation Security Administration) pulled them off to re-screened them again just to found that they were no threat whatsoever for the flight. The officials then spent literally more than ten minutes tried to convinced the pilot to let the men back into the plane but he absolutely refused and ultimately took off. The Atlantic Southeast Airlines did not say why the two men were taken off the flight, but said they were given the opportunity to fly on a different flight. I was like, REALLY? Does that solve the problem? Na-ah…I don’t think so.

Now, here is the thing, referred to President Obama speech a week before the incident, he was clearly said that this was not a war against Islam but a war against terrorists. But, one thing the President probably didn’t realize that the prejudice about Islam was there to deal with. Many people, especially Americans, have their own impression whenever they saw people in Moslem attires, for example those two Imams. They had been accused to cause an uncomfortable feeling for other passengers because of their outfits. And that only happened because of their Moslem gears. Seriously, if a monk also joined the flight that day with his Buddhist outfit, trust me, no one would even bother. Am I over sensitive about this religious issue?

Maybe. But ever since 9/11, U.S. Muslims, estimated between six to seven million, have become sensitized to an erosion of their civil rights, with a prevailing belief that America was stigmatizing their faith. And as for me, this incident with two Imams actually remind me to my own experience when I tried to get my American visa a few years back then. As everyone aware that it was a little bit a challenge for a Moslem to get an American visa after the 9/11 incident. As I went to the U.S embassy in Surabaya to applied for mine, the security procedures were beyond believe. Among other applicants, I wasn’t allowed to bring anything apart from the documents I need to apply for my visa. Everything stayed at the security’s counter. And when the guy in the counter refused my application, I was like, yeah…just because am a Moslem, they refused to give me a visa. But of course, my curiosity leaded me to question him what went wrong with my application. He then mentioned a particular document that I failed to showed him. When I explained to him that I actually have the document with me, he then suggested me to re-apply again the next day, which I did, then get my visa smoothly. This thing was actually embarrassing for me, as I was ashamed of myself by jumped into an unreasonable conclusion and accused the guy as a racist when he rejected my application. Turned up it was my fault by not giving him my complete documents. Sigh!

Then what is my point for all of these incidents? That everything is actually inside people’s minds. A poll conducted by Bendixon & Associations and co-sponsored by Amnesty (International) in 2004 found that Arab-Americans were found three times more likely to have experienced racial profiling than the rest of the non-Hispanic white population and that Moslems were more likely to have experienced profiling since 9/11. Nearly half of Arab- and Moslem-Americans said they believe the government is using racial profiling to screen individuals for security purposes. In Georgia a Moslem man said he was barred from a county courtroom Thursday (May 5th) because he refused to remove his Moslem head covering, nearly two years after Georgia's judges voted to allow religious headwear in all state courtrooms. In the United States, 73 percent of young people aged 18 to 29 say Moslems are the most discriminated against. So it doesn’t matter what the President said about the Osama’s death, but the fact was there for people to see. Forgive me if I was misunderstood of the whole things. Maybe my English was not that good as I no speak Americano. But shortly after the news on Osama Bin Laden's death was announced inflammatory graffiti was spray-painted on a mosque in downtown Portland as an act of "hate and bias." The graffiti included comments like "Go Home" and "Osama Today Islam Tomorrow." Please, explain that Mr. President?

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Life Unexpected (An Ode About Osama Bin Laden)

Alrighty people, yesterday was officially a day of celebration for all of the people in the USA after their troops somewhere near Islamabad Pakistan claimed that they had killed the number one most wanted man in the world, Osama Bin Laden. For those who don't know who this mas is, allow me to introduce you to the international face of terrorism itself..yup, Osama was indeed accused to be the man behind almost every terror attack all over the world and the worst and most shocking one was the 9/11 attack which killed almost three thousand people when the hijacked planes crashed the WTC buildings in the center of New York City of the USA. The American government targeted him ever since and determined to demolish him from the world. It was said loud and clear in the operation last week that they wanted Osama to be killed, dead. For almost a decade now they had been dedicated their mission to locate and destroy this 'supposed to be' most dangerous human being ever alive and now that they succeed, for sure, it was definitely worth a celebration..for them.

As much as I don't like tragic news, I couldn't resisted this sort of great yet ironic thing as every TV station aired it all day long, even until now. I actually first noticed about this from Facebook when sometime yesterday morning, a friend posted the news on his wall and I was like, "Yeah, yeah..here we go again!" Now, don't get me wrong because of my sarcasm just yet. I have so many reasons to be so as the news about his death were actually came out few times on the news before yet none of them were true. In fact, after the news aired, Osama was always released his home videos showed how alive and healthy he was. Seemed like he was trying to make fun of the US government with those videos, and of course, this thing built even more hatred in the heart of the Americans. Then for sure, it was no surprise whatsoever if his 'truly' death which confirmed with DNA test result caused an euphoria within not just American people but also most of the people around the world. Everyone is celebrating. Ironic in a different kind of meaning indeed. I mean, seriously..what kind of man whose his death caused people dancing, popped a bottle of champagne, gather on the street and singing, a President of a super power country called for an immediate press conference, and even an army disposing his body in the ocean as they afraid of the unexpected effect that might happens on his graveyard. Man oh man, even after his death he was still considered as a dangerous monster. 

Now, the big question is, knowing that the leader of the biggest terrorist organization that people fear of was officially kaput, does that mean that our world is now safe or even riskier? Does Al-Qaeda, which they said the name was, die too together with its leader? As most of us know that the 'so called' notorious terrorist Osama came from respected self-made billionaire Arab family who most of the time funded the terror attacks from his own pocket money and called it as a Jihad. Correct me if am wrong, but as a Moslem myself, I aware that Jihad in Arabic means holy war. But was it a holy war itself? That's my friend, am not so sure. Besides, who am I to decide? One thing for me was, killing so many innocent people was not how our prophet Mohammad did it. At least that what I believed and am stick with it. But yeah, am not a fanatic nor practicing orthodox Islam as Osama did.

Here is the thing, I was never followed the news about Osama myself as I don't really watch the news that often. Most of the time I flick the channel to something light to watch whenever serious issue came on the screen, I prefer to not know it. I mean, it was cool to know what happened, but no detail please. I just don't think it was my concern to be informed that Qaddafi's son got killed last week and now it's Osama's turn. Too devastating in ironically meaning. But one think upsetting me about what happened yesterday was because of the May Day issue forced me to stayed away from the market and by becoming the last person to know about this Osama's thing which of course affected the market in a good way cost me an opportunities lost in the market. Big time! Sigh!

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Love, Actually.. (A Poem)

Some say love is blind
Some say it isn't
Some say love hurts
Some say it doesn't
Some say love just an urban legend
Passed from generation to generation
Some say love is a fairy tale
A bedtime story that never exist
Some say love is beautiful
The only thing that put smile on your face
Some say love is unconditional
It brakes a wall between strangers
Some say love is blue
Some say it's yellow
Some say love is purple
Some say it's grey
Some say love is a holly grail
Some say love belongs to the one who believes
Some say love is ultimate
Some say love is compromise
But I say love is not a sacred
I say love is not always pink
I say love is something fun
I say love can sometime be black

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