Have you ever been in the situation where your relationship with your love one doesn't go the way you want it to be? Well, I do. Here is the thing, I had been together with my previous partner for as long as I can remember. We never had any serious problem that needed our concerns whatsoever. Seemed so perfect from the outside but not so much in the inside. No, am not going to spill the details here but I just want to open everyone else's mind that sometime something that look so perfect actually is the sign of an imperfection. When everything seems to be following your way, sometime it blinds you of what your gut was telling you. Just like what happened to me, even though my gut was always telling me that he was never the one but I thought I could make him. I mean, come on, he was so perfect and he did nothing wrong. And to be honest with you, I did think that he was at the beginning, but toward our fifth years together I lost it. The feeling wasn't even there anymore. But, because of everything seems so decent, I have no reason to changed it. So, despite on what I felt inside me, I just carried on. I thought that was the right thing to do, but I was wrong. Totally.
When your feeling to your love one becomes flat, actually that's when the alarm went off. I mean, it doesn't have to be like a fight or an argument or something, but when you feel like having a good friend next to you instead of partner, then that's actually the time to make a change. And no, it doesn't have to be something extreme like what I did, but it was definitely the time. You can either fix the relationship so you can be together still or move on with your own life. As for me, I chose the last one. I mean, I don't have many friends, everyone knew that. Am actually the kind of person who loves do things alone. I don't really do friendship, only for few people who I really like and can take advantage from. Ha! So yeah, the point is when the feeling between you and your partner turned flat and it was more like a friendship thingy, as for me, it is time to move on. Come on, you can't sleep with your good friend, can you? That is so gross!!
So yeah, then I took an action which probably made everyone judged me as an ignorant selfish unbelievably heartless human being. But I couldn't help myself and pretending anymore. Our thing was over, us doesn't belong to him and me anymore. Our 'oh so perfect' relationship turned bitter and flat. Whether if we like it or not, the reality was so obvious. The one way system road that we walked on before is now separated into two. As a dear friend once said, we can actually change our destiny with our conscious action, then yeah, I hope what I did just now can make my destiny in the future even better than what God has wrote for me. And so does for him. I hope that we (my ex and me) can be good friends in the future, because that what he was to me for the past two years of our togetherness, a truly good friend.
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