If Tomorrow Never Comes..(My Deepest Feeling Inspired By A Song With Same Title)

Sometimes late at night, I lay awake in dark, the thought crosses my mind…if I never wake in the morning, would you ever doubt the connection between us? The true feelings that we share everyday? Would you ever doubt the way I feel about us in my heart?
If tomorrow never comes, will you know how much I love you? How much I adore you? Despite on everything that they said about you? Despite on how we are definitely not a true match, despite on how you had a problem understanding me and vice versa?
If my time on earth were through, and you must face this world without me, is the love that we share in the past is going to be enough to last? Is the love I gave you each day in the past is going to be enough to occupied you?
If tomorrow never comes, will you keep me in your heart? Will you kiss me for the last time? Will you mention my name in every pray you made before you go to bed? Will I be the one in your mind before you close your eyes every night? Will you ever doubt that we is belong to you and me?
If tomorrow never comes, I would like to take this chance to tell you how I feel about you, about us, about you and me. I know I failed to show you everyday how much I love you, how much I care. If tomorrow never comes, I want you to know how much I bother. I don’t want to regret it when my true feeling for you never revealed. So now I make a promise to myself, that I will say it to you each day how much you mean to me and avoid the circumstance where there’s no second chance to show you that you’re still the one. If tomorrow never comes, I want to tell you what am thinking of…if tomorrow never comes, will you know how much I love you?
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une lettre ouverte à mon Jour férié Dans Goa, vous êtes toujours celui..

My Silence

My silence doesn't mean that am mad
Nor that am sad
My silence doesn't mean that am angry
Nor that am lonely
My silence sometime means that am unhappy
But mostly because of am grumpy
My silence sometime doesn't really mean anything
My silence sometime only because of I haven't say nothing
My silence sometime really-really because of I really haven't say anything
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The Jinx Of Interlagos

If any of you guys watched the Brazilian F1 Grand Prix last night at Interlagos Circuit, then you must be understand what am talking about here. Yeah, the circuit of Interlagos, which in English means Interlake, is located in between a lake and it’s about 1,000 m above sea level. On the qualification rounds, the weather was devastated, it was pissing down so that they have to stop the qualifying thing after the second round as the location of the race was flooded. And the worst thing that could happen was that because of its location is on the hill which very close with the cloud levels so if any accident happened, the chopper won’t be able to landed and fly anyone to the hospital, so yeah, that is why they have to stop the race.
Thankfully, on the race day last night the weather was beautiful. Was a little bit cloudy at some part, but they reckon it won’t be rain until the end of the race. But here is the thing, the circuit of Interlagos is a full of melodramatic circuit. So many things happened here that worth to be watch. Yeah, even the race was on like in the middle of the night here in Indonesia, but I refused to close my eyes, I even forgot to blink sometime! If you guys following the F1 Grand Prix like I do, then you must still remember what happened last year on the race when Massa, the homeboy driver, won the race and celebrated his victory as a World Champion? That same time, Hamilton battled Vettel for the crucial point needed to win the Championship, but seemly he couldn’t do it. However, as the result of using dry tyres on wet weather, yeah…the rain began to fall heavily on lap 69, Timo Glock who was at fifth position at that time had to slowed down at the last corner of the track because of he was struggling for grip as his dry-weather tyres slid on the wet track and allowed Vettel to take the fifth position and handed Hamilton a world championship title that was holding by Massa for a few seconds and crowned him as the youngest championship winner! What a drama!
This year’s race was even more dramatic than last year. First of all, Massa couldn’t join the race after that fatal accident that he had a couple of race ago at Hungarian Grand Prix that put him to a rest for the rest of the season. So, all of the attention went to Barrichello as a homeboy driver, which he done very well on the qualifying round by holding the pole position for the race. His teammate and my favorite driver Button, on the other hand, didn’t do it quite well as he failed to show his best performance on wet weather which was his specialty while he was actually needed only six points above Barrichello to win the championship title. But, right from the start Button benefited from carnage to jump up from his 14th grid place to ninth at the end of a dramatic first lap. It began when Kimi Raikkonen’s Ferrari brushed wheels with Adrian Sutil’s Force India going into the first corner, which is a critical point of the track calls Senna Ace, named after the great Brazilian driver Ayrton Senna who died on a tragic accident at San Morino circuit of Italy on 1994. Then Sebastian Vettel’s Red Bull tagged Heikki Kovalainen’s McLaren on the exit, the Finn spinning and forcing Ferrari’s Giancarlo Fisichella to run on to the grass in avoidance.
Further round the lap Jarno Trulli pulled his Toyota alongside Sutil but lost control as he was squeezed over the outer curb. He tangled with the Force India, each spinning off in different directions. As Sutil speared back on to the track, he bounced right in front of Renault’s Fernando Alonso, who had nowhere to go and retired with rear suspension damage. Not surprisingly the safety car was deployed as debris all over the place was cleared up while on the sideway, Trulli confronted or even almost attacked Sutil as he blamed the man for causing the incident which according to my opinion wasn’t his fault at all. In fact, he was barely did anything wrong to my knowledge, but hey, maybe I know nothing about the race?
As if all that wasn’t dramatic enough, there was excitement in the pits as Kovalainen and Raikkonen both stopped at the end of the lap. The Ferrari driver had damaged his front wing against Webber, who had got away second behind Barrichello at the start. Kovalainen pulled away too soon from refuelling, taking his fuel hose with him. Raikkonen, right behind, then ran through a flash fire as fuel spewed from Kovalainen’s trailing fuel hose. Jokingly, the commentator mention about the iceman Raikkonen who seemed to stay cool even in the fire, hah!
When the racing resumed on the sixth lap Button launched an attack on Franco-Swiss rookie Renault driver Romain Grosjean. They ran side by side and re-passed one another a couple of times in some tense wheel-to-wheel racing, but this was the Jenson Button who won six of the first seven races and he wasn’t having any of that and soon settled the issue. Next on the list was Williams’ Kazuki Nakajima, whom he deposed on the seventh lap. Rookie Kamui Kobayashi proved tougher, but after one failed attempt in Turn One Button made is stick.
From the 35th lap he had the championship in his sights, as the pit stops ebbed and flowed. The ones that really mattered came from the 50th lap onwards. Barrichello pitted then from second place. On Lap 55 Button pitted from third. On Lap 56 Vettel pitted from third. When the dust had finally settled on the 59th lap, Webber was leading Kubica by 5.2s, with Barrichello third from Hamilton, Vettel and Button. Thus Button had 88 points; Barrichello 77, Vettel 73. The miracle had happened. Poor Webber, as the Australian driver reeled off the final laps after a superb drive that was inevitably overshadowed by the title drama, and Kubica maintained his surprise second place despite nursing an overheating engine, Hamilton came pushing up behind Barrichello after McLaren cleverly changed his strategy after the first-lap carnage, and overtook him on the 61st lap. The Brazilian, so desperate to win on his home ground, was in trouble. A tyre had punctured, and he needed to make a third pit stop two laps later. It was the final icing on Button’s cake, as he jumped up to fifth place behind Vettel.
Finally, with 89 points nobody could beat Button whatever happens in Abu Dhabi, and to rub salt into Barrichello’s wounds he dropped to third on 72 behind Vettel’s 74. All through the slowing down lap, Button sang over the radio to his delighted team: “We are the champions my friends!” And afterwards he could not stop himself. “It’s great to be sat here as the world champion, and personally I feel that I deserve it. I was the best over 16 races and that’s what world champions are. I am it. I am a world champion! And I’m going to keep saying it all night!” Honestly, I love when someone knew that he or she deserved the winning. That's my friend, what I call self confidence! Jenson Button went into the Brazilian Grand Prix looking for a miracle and he found it. It made him Britain’s 10th world champion, and marked the first time England has celebrated back-to-back drivers' titles. At the same time, his success was more than sufficient to cement the constructors’ title for Brawn, a unique and historic achievement in their first season. Sweet!
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Move Over, Guys…Brad Pitt Is Coming To Town!

So the rumor has spread. Yeah, starting today, October 16th, the shoot of the film Eat, Love, Pray is began in the island of Bali. As the star of the film, Julia Roberts will be here for the solid one week, together with her producer Brad Pitt. Yup, the film is produced by B Movie, a company used to owns by Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston but not anymore since their over published divorced on 2005. All the girls in town went mad as the news leaked. One of my dear friend was even plan the trip to Ubud, where they shoot the film, even way before they came. Hah, talking about the star struck thing!
Here’s the thing, I have nothing against anyone who chase stars in their spare times, but for me, they are not in my circle anymore. Come on guys, what was the last film of Julia Roberts? I can see everyone has a problem to even mention it, and no, it’s not Ocean 13. Actually it was Duplicity which she was co-starring with Clive Owen, I guess, and no it wasn’t a box office at all. As a matter of fact, for me, it was suck! Well, I don’t mean to tell you guys that she is already became a ‘Hollywood Has Been’ but yeah, the spark wasn’t there anymore. At least, to me, I can’t see it anymore. Even in Ocean 13, which was a very cool movie, she lost her superstar charmed in it. Luckily the film was starred by such a great male actors that actually safe the film from being slumped. That was also according to me.
Back to the craziness in the island of Bali, where duo ‘Hollywood Almost Have Been’ were shoot the film Eat, Love, Pray, I was like don’t understand at all why do people even bother? It’s only Brad Pitt, you guys! Call me weird, but I can’t see why do girls love him? A friend of mine even named one of his son from his character in the movie Legend Of The Fall, which made her fell in love with him! I don’t know guys, maybe I am a weirdo, but yeah, am not so much for any Hollywood leading man. I might be hysterical if Adam Lambert is here, or that Vince guy from Entourage, or Gerald Butler, and yeah...maybe even Collin Farrell. But apart from that, I don’t think so.
And talking about the reason why they were here, even more boring. Have you guys read the book? Yeah, am talking about ‘the’ Eat, Love, Pray book here. My best friend said that she was reading that book since, I don’t know, five months ago maybe? And she stuck at page 5 until now, she couldn’t finish it. Yeah, it was that boring, beside what do you expect from a book that wrote by a woman, about a woman, and dedicated to women? Duh! Am so sorry, I don’t mean to be a b*tch, I just want to tell you my opinion about this thing. Maybe am a fool, but even until today, I still think that yoga and or meditation and its gang was only for boring people and Sting, hah! So yeah, I never interested to read the book at first place, which for me is going to waste my time. But hey, everyone has their own taste, right? Then of course, I don’t really care about Brad and Julia who were in town at the moment, but I do wish everyone luck on their star struck thing..so, good luck, guys! Aaah, what the heck...Ubud for the weekend, Darling?
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Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover (?)

I read this phrase not so long ago on my friend’s Facebook’s status and did not pay any attention on it until a couple of months ago, I met a guy in a club who was at that time approaching me but then at the end became a dear friend of me and my gang. When we told him about why did we welcome him in our closed and tight group, which was because of he looks alright (come on, I can’t be too obvious by saying that he looks great here, can I?), he was like amazed but then called us shallow as he said that our group judging people by their looks from the outside.

Okay, before we talk about that, let me tell you about this phrase first. The very common English idiom "don't judge a book by its cover" is a metaphorical phrase which means "don't determine the worth of something based on its appearance". It is probably the most common expression used in English to convey vanity. The phrase first appeared in the American journal American Speech in 1944 as "you can't judge a book by its binding." In 1946 the phrase appeared in the murder mystery novel Murder in the Glass Room (by Edwin Rolfe and Lester Fuller) as "you can never tell a book by its cover." It was further popularized by the 1947 movie "The Bachelor and the Bobby-Soxer," in which Cary Grant references the idiom anecdotally before saying the line "never judge a book by its cover." While the phrase itself may be born of the 20th century, the idea has existed much longer. In the 1st and 2nd centuries AD, the Roman author Juvenal wrote in his Satires, "Fronti nulla fides," (Satires II,8) which translates as, "Never have faith in the front.”

Back to my point, actually I was a little bit confused with the phrase. Let me explain to you guys here, why did I confuse? Here’s the thing, when it comes to judging something, for me, that means that I didn’t know anything about what I was going to judge, right? I mean, am not going to judge about something or someone that I already knew. It doesn’t call judging if we already knew about it, don’t you think so? Then yeah, when it comes to something that we didn’t know, of course we judge them by how they look from the outside, duh! Let me give you an example here, if you met a guy in a club then he was like approaching you while he was like not so much for an outlook, would you even smile to him? Would you even think of okay, I think he’s a nice guy so I’ll talk to him? Would you? I don’t think so. How do you know that he was a nice guy if you just met him at that point? How do you decide whether he worth a shot or not if you never met him before? Of course, you decide it by judging him from his appearance! Like when you saw a guy who you don’t know riding a bike recklessly with only surfing shorts on and body full of freckles, what was the first thought that came in to your mind? Exactly…OZ! How do you tell? By his appearance, definitely! And why do you think some people put false pictures of themselves on their so called social networking site’s account if they think that no one will judge them by their outlooks? Or why do you even bother checking on how do you look in the mirror before you left your house if nobody even care. That’s so human, guys! And it’s not shallow at all, well…at least for me it’s not.

Before you guys say something, let me now give you another example and this time is literally. If they said ‘don’t judge a book by its cover’ then why would they even bother to put a great picture and or design when they published a book? Nobody is going to decide whether they are going to buy that book or not by the look of its cover, isn’t it? Hah! So yeah, am so sorry guys…call me shallow or whatever, but of course, as a normal human being, I do judge a book by its cover. So don’t blame us if when the guy that I mention above, asked me to meet him again the next day after we met at a club that night, I was like asked my friends’ opinion about that. And guess what did they say? Yeah, they were like…he looked alright, he dressed properly, and he smelled good, so yeah…welcome to the club! Come on guys, we can’t say that he was a great or nice guy yet, we barely knew him at that time! But now after a while, we decided to maintain our friendship with him because of he was in fact a great guy, with a look as a bonus, hah! So the point that I am trying to tell you is, do judge a book by its cover, but don’t decide whether it worth a keep or not just by its appearance.

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À tous mes chers amis, merci de l'inspiration ... vous la roche de gars!

Facebook Bloopers

After joined the Facebook, a so called ‘friendship network’, I realized one thing…that some people who doesn’t know how to deal with this site often using it inappropriately. So yeah, many of them made some stupid mistakes and ended up in trouble. A friend of mine who had planning his boyfriend surprised birthday party last week made her status on Facebook telling everyone that she was doing it. And yeah, her boyfriend is also in the Facebook! I know…that what was I thought so too, how stupid could it be? How big that she thought the chance for her boyfriend not to check on her page just to find out about it? But that was nothing compare to a guy name Kevin something who lives in London, this one I got from splatter mail telling a story about the guy who skipped work one day, told his boss that he had a family emergency that forced him to flew to New York that day. But funny thing is, the next day his picture showed up in his Facebook with him wearing a costume in one of those Halloween party that night somewhere in town! What an idiot! Now it’s not just that he had to deal with his boss who fired him in public using his Facebook page, but he also had to deal with the humiliation about those tutu skirt and make-up that he had in the picture, hah!
But yeah, that was absolutely nothing at all compare to this story I am going to tell you. Yup, you guys are right if you think that am saving the best for last. This one is about a forty something years old woman name Tracy something who filled in her relationship status column on her Facebook said that she’s engaged. I don’t know for sure if this is a real thing or a fake thing, but, it was just proofed me more about how older people should be careful with this digital technology thing. I mean, they aren’t ready for the digital information overload that is our lives. They have difficulty distinguishing between what is public and what is private when it comes to the Internet. So the information they throw out there often gets filtered incorrectly and they unknowingly make their private life too public. They’re unaware how to adjust privacy settings and gain control of what information is displayed and who gets privilege to that info. To them, nothing is black and white. It’s all gray and fuzzy. And that is where the problem lies! If you don’t know the ins and outs of Facebook and or Twitter, and their other web friends, DO NOT USE THEM! When it comes to social networking sites, what you don't know can hurt you. So yeah, say no more but just read this page above and please tell me how should I reacted to this? LOL?
If she hasn't been laid in months, something tells me this Michael she's conversing with (and pounding her like a lion) isn’t her fiancé. Dirty girl! Am so sorry Tracy, but am with Jeff in this case…yeah, I would probably said ’nice’ too in my comment, only for me, it would be ’niiiiiiiiiiiiice’, hah! And yeah, I would probably play dumb as well by not immediately answer her question and telling her how to delete those wall posting. Definitely, I would let it there for…yeah, at least one night, just to see others’ reaction on it. Maybe that’s mean, but something like this is too priceless not to bask in for a while. However, the moral of the story here is a simple one. If you don’t know how to properly/fully use something, don’t use it. Now if you still want to use something, but don’t know how to properly/fully use it, LEARN. Or if you're Tracy, you'll eventually learn, the hard way though.
Call me a snob, but I liked it better when Facebook was only open to those who had a college or university e-mail address. Ah yes, those were the good old days when your Mom couldn’t friend you and stalk you on Facebook! The good old days when I wasn’t subjected to oldies men sending me messages on Facebook thinking this was the new Match.com or eHarmony. It’s Facebook. It’s a social networking site, NOT a dating site! There is nothing on my Facebook page that says I’m looking for a guy who are old enough to be my father or that I’m searching for a man whose kids I have more in common with than him. I’m sorry and I don’t mean to be a b*tch, but I’m just not interested. Now when it comes to Tracy, I'm pity her for not having a knowledge about the website but still insisted to use it.
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Searching God (Part 2)

Yesterday’s earthquake struck along the same fault line as the tremor that caused the tsunami five years ago that claimed the lives of 232,000 on Sumatra, across South-East Asia and as far away as the East African coast. The island, ravaged by the Boxing Day tsunami of 2004 and a long-running civil war in the province of Aceh, had only just begun to recover. A powerful earthquake that struck western Indonesia yesterday triggered landslides and trapped thousands of people under collapsed buildings -- including two hospitals, officials said. National Disaster Management Agency says the deaths were counted in the coastal Sumatran city of Padang, following Wednesday's 7.6 magnitude quake. At least 200 bodies were found in one coastal city and the toll was expected to be far higher.
Some people who put religious thing on a strongest position would think of this disaster as a punishment from God of what we did wrong in the past. Well, I never see it that way. Okay, you can say that am not a religious type of person, but I do believe in one thing and that thing is my God doesn’t do revenge. I believe that if God wanted us to leave in a peaceful harmony, then why would He does such thing? Doesn’t make any sense to me. Have you ever think of this might be has something to do with our mistake to the nature? Our failure of keep the balance in our daily basis? How did we destroy our rain forests so that they can not hold any more water for us and how did we take all of those sands to build all of those sky reaches buildings?
The thing is guys, I think that we need to start using our common sense instead of those mambo jumbo things. Everything that we could answer logically. Oh no, am not asking you to stop all of those prays that you did on your daily routine, for sure we need them at some points. But, instead of doing those prays all day long, why don’t we start to fix the damage that we caused to our nature, and let see what happen next? Gosh, now I can understand why all of those Hollywood superstars seeking answers in that Scientologist belief, because they were tired of seeking answer from the holly bible just to find out that when you believe in God, you don’t doubting His words. Well, guess what…I do believe in God but my head also demanding some common sense answers for all of my questions.
When the first time I wrote about “Searching God”, a dear friend who doesn’t believe in God, suggested me to visit a website about how God was actually just a doctrine from churches and priests to their followers. Wow, kind of scary, huh? Seriously, I was signed out from that website half way through because of am afraid of what the damage that might get in to my soul if I continued watching. To be honest with you, I don’t want to change my belief as am very comfortable with it. Saying that though, it would probably different if my parents didn’t give a strong religious based since I was a kid. But yeah, they did, so here I am.
Back to my point, I just want to tell you guys, at this stage we are not in the position to judge others or even ourselves by saying that what happened yesterday was a punishment from God. I don’t believe that God is that shallow, He’s way beyond that. Unlike us, He’s not an anger type of guy. Beside, He doesn’t need to show off his almighty power just to warn us, He loves us. We’re his creature, aren’t we? So yeah, don’t get me wrong guys, am not against any religious thing here. But, even in my belief, they were always said that, “Do something first, then pray so God will help you with the result of what you were doing.” Did you read that properly? Do something first. And yeah, a dear friend said to me once that everything happened, happens for a reason and I think that he was absolutely correct. But, the thing is, the reason was not always religious.
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To all of my dear friends and relatives who got hit bad time by yesterday's quake, don't worry guys..God loves you all!