Something Right

My friends and I went out last weekend and got carried out until 5 o’clock in the morning, so of course, our men kind of upset with us and we ended up in trouble. Yesterday afternoon, my friend called me and talked about what went wrong about last weekend night out. Was that a hundred percent our fault? Here is the thing, our dear friend from out of town was in Bali visiting us for my other friend’s birthday bash a week before. Then of course, as a good friend, we planned a surprise birthday party for him as well, simply just because we love him and appreciate his visit. But as usual, we were kind of lose it and the small party that we planned before turned up to be a big night out for us. And yeah, we were out of control but as my man said, my friends and I were always have an answer for our so called mistake and last weekend was no different.

So yeah, my dear friend and I were having a serious conversation about our behavior lately then came to a conclusion that we need to change. We were kind of neglecting our love ones and too busy with our own life and we don’t even realized this until what happened last weekend and our men gave us a warning. First I was like, I am not a kid so I can do whatever I want as long as I know and ready with the risks, so yeah, I was like ignored everything but after a while, I woken up and smell the coffee. I realized that in the world we have to sacrifice something to get something else. We can’t always get everything that we want, like the whole world is ours. It just doesn’t work that way. Even the day has to giving up to the night when the time comes. You can’t take care of your business, while having fun with your friends and still pay attention to your love ones during your daily routine because God only prepares us with twenty four hours in a day, remember?

Then of course, from now on we will change, well, at least we will try to adjust our priority. Hey, this is not something as easy as it sounds to achieve, don’t you think so? But yeah, from now on, we will put our love ones on the top of our list together with ourselves and our business, of course, but above our friends, our daily routine, our shopping habits, our afternoon coffee, even our having fun which was always gave us trouble. This is not a promise but we will make it as our resolutions for this year. And we made a deal that we will be each other’s reminder for this so called the holly goal of the year, hah! I know, most people who knew us would probably laughed at us, but we were serious when we made this decision. So yeah, we’re not trying to justify our mistake, but if these came from our heart and made us feel good about ourselves, then we must be doing something right. If we feel that this is something that we need to do not because of anything or anyone else but ourselves, then we must be doing something right. Because nothing sounds even more right than something that came from the heart and makes you feel better about yourselves.

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Will You Marry Me? (Read : My Mum)

"Girl, he purposed to me last night!" I still remember that sentence came out from my friend Emma (not a real name, for God sake!)'s mouth just a couple weeks before Christmas. We started to talk about her wedding plans that supposed to be on June this year. Emma sounded very happy so that made me very excited as well. I am so happy for her. This is the man that she really loved and adored. For the last ten months she never stop talking about him.

Everything as smooth as we can imagine. The only problem was when Emma told me that Ardy (her fiancée, and of course this is not a real name, are you kidding me?) did not agree with the well-known designer's wedding gown that she picked. He thought it was too expensive. No, not because of he couldn't afford it, God knows he certainly can. But he just thought that spending sixty million Rupiah for a gown that you only going to wear once is a little bit too much. Gosh...typical men, they just don't get it, do they? But that didn't ruined my friend’s happiness at all, even she has to emptied her saving account to cover for her dream gown, who cares? This is a gown that she was always wanted we‘re talking about!

So don't blame me if I was a little bit shocked to hear that their engagement was over just at the end of last week. She was so upset when she called and asked me to pick her up at the airport. She really needed some time for herself so she flew to Bali to meet me and hope that she could forget all behind her.

As a good friend, I kept on convince her that this won't be the end of everything. They meant to be together, I know that. I am a witness of how they adore each other. So, what was not right in this relationship?

"I got into an argument and ended up fight with his mom, and he stood behind her so that we have to broke this engagement up," Emma was in tears when she told me the reason. A bell just ringing in my head. Omigosh...not another mother in law and daughter in law phenomenon again. For a long time now I heard about how difficult it is to bonded mother and daughter in law. And only God knows why men always compare women to their mother. And only God knows why women always feel uncomfortable with their mother in law.

Emma's situation reminds me to every girlfriends I have. Every single of them has the same problem. One of them even said that she prefer if her father in law come to visit them rather than the mother. Why? Yup, because she was always feel uncomfortable with her. As for my other friend, she was lucky enough that her mother in law live in a different continent with her so that they only connected by phone. Even that, every time her hubby calls his mom, she was always pretended that she was asleep so her mother in law wouldn't ask him to put her on the phone. Does she have any problem with her mother in law? Nope. As a matter of fact, her mother in law loves her very much since she has no daughter. But for no reason she was always speechless every time they tried to talk to each other. It was so awkward situation. Is that her mother in law’s fault? I don't think so. Is it my friend’s? Well, I don’t think so either, maybe? But this dilemma happens for a very long-long time, just ask our mums and our mum‘s mum. And it's probably going to be there for another long-long time. It was just a dilemmatic thing. Two women in one room can caused chaos, everybody knows that.

Emma a little bit calm down after I told her about this. She's not alone. She has got millions of women in the whole world understand her situation. Gosh, I hope that they will be back together again. I really do.

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I Am Just Love

Some say that am nothing, some say that am everything. Some say that am a river that drowns the fragile reeds, some say that am an ocean with an unpredictable wave. Some say that am a razor that leaves your heart to bleed, some say that am a hunger that needs to feed. And I am love, an endless aching need.
Some say that am the one who will never be taken, the one who cannot seems to deliver. Some say that am a soul afraid of dying so that I never learn to live. Some say that am a dream afraid of waking so that I never take any chances. Some say that am just a heart afraid of breaking so that I never learn to twist. And I am love, a constant nagging pain.
Some say that am white, some say that am black. Some say that am yellow, but sometime I give everyone a blue. Some say that am grey, some say that am green. Once in a while I will be red, once in a while am purple, am even orange at some points. But I am love, an ultimate pink in your mind.
Some keep me in a silence, some celebrate me in a crowd. Some yell my name so loud, some whisper my name quietly. Some say that I deserve an announcement, some prefer me in the dark. Some flirt with me behind someone else’s back, some hold my hand with proud. Some call me in the middle of the night, some show me under the spotlight. And I am love, a bitter sweet seduction.
But I say that am a flower and sacrifice is its only seed. So when the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long, don’t ever think that I only belong to the lucky and the strong. Because remember, in the miserable cold winter, far beneath the bitter snows, lies a seed that with the sun’s love in the spring, becomes the rose.
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Another Different Kind Of Love Story (A Poem)

Don’t send me any flowers
Especially roses
Because I never work out what that means anyway
And I am not your lover, by the way
Don’t kiss me like you always did
Especially on my lips
Because I never asked you to
And beside, it makes me falling for your love
Don’t hold me in your arms
Especially when my heart is so burden
Because I don’t want to be depend on you
As you won’t always be there for me too
Don’t shower me with your sweet love
Especially when you can not promise me
That you will always love me, only me
Because I am not going to share you with anybody
Don’t look back as you walk away
Especially just to wave towards me
Because the last thing that I want to see from you is your sorrow face
When you look at me with those teary eyes
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To my sweet friend Eva, love you girl..! Hope this one sounds right to you..♥

Welcoming Adam

These last two days had been a worst day in my life since I was mourned for Adam Lambert’s loss in American Idol thing. I know, what a freak I am you must think of that, but honestly, this is the first time where am really into a TV show such as American Idol. When Ryan called Kris as the winner yesterday night, I was like literally in tears. I couldn’t take it. Despite on how well Adam took his loss was, despite on how a nice guy Kris is, despite on how them both are in fact good friends, I couldn’t take it. Yeah, maybe some of you don’t know that Adam and Kris are roommates in Idol castle so that they became a very good friends. In fact, on homecoming tour, if you guys noticed, Kris had black nail polish on one of his thump nail while Adam took off one of his. It seemed like they want to show us that even if they were apart but at least they carried each other’s part with them. Ah…how sweet was that?
So yeah, I was kind of feeling down with all of these then forgot to blog about a new member in my family. It was two days ago, the same date with American Idol final round, my man heard a kitten meowing behind a big wall next to my house. But because of the wall is too high so he couldn’t do anything. The last thing he saw, according to my man, my cat Frosty was up there on the top of the wall then when missing for almost fifteen minutes, then out of nowhere, there was this small ugly looking black and tan kitten at the back of my television set where my cat Frosty normally hiding. Of course, our conclusions was that he went across the wall and picked up that kitten from whatever was that behind that wall and brought him home. What a nice one! And as a tribute to Adam Lambert, I decided to named him Adam. Well, to be honest, I am not sure if he is a he or a she since it’s too difficult for me to see it at this early age. He was like probably only a month old, so tiny and the fur was not even fully growth yet. So yeah, the idea was if he’s in fact is a he then he’s an Adam, but if he turned up to be a she then he is a Kris, hah!
Back to Adam, as the kitten that is, this ugly sod really made himself comfortable at his first day. He was jumped up all over the place as soon as he got some food in his tummy. What an active animal he is! The funny thing is, my dog actually the one who was okay with this little gremlin compares to my cat. Despite on how my cat was actually who brought Adam home, but he was kind of jealous of him now. It was probably because of he used to be the youngest in the family and always got more attention, he was kind of feeling neglected now as all of the attentions go to Adam. Even my dog’s attention now was always to Adam. This ugly little thing even sleep on my chest every night as he was probably still looking for his mother's heartbeat. And it kills my cat seeing that so he was always gave Adam a snarl everytime they met. So yeah, considering this jealous factor, whenever I leave home, I was like put my dog and Adam in the house and my cat outside by the seatee. And I know for sure that this makes him even more up set. Did I mention that the first night Adam was home, my cat refused to come into the house and chose to sleep outside which was unusual for him as he was normally a house cat that never like sleeping outside? Guess animals are humans at some point.
Then yeah, my days now become busier with Macallan, my min-pin, Frosty the cat, Adam the kitten, Tommy the turtle, Momo, my neighbor’s Pomeranian who is always play in my house with my min-pin, MC the Balinese dog who claimed herself as my dog’s girlfriend, and Sebi the squirrel who comes to my house every now and then and I don’t even know where he comes from. Probably from the bushes next to the big wall I was talking earlier. And yeah, am a proud momma. I would probably build a zoo next.
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Oops, They Did It Again!

Yeah, if you want to know what this is about, it is about the result of American Idol that crowned Kris Allen as the new idol defeated the extraordinary Adam Lambert who is became a favorite since day one. I spotted this talented guy when he did the audition in San Diego last year which glued me to the television waiting for his actions week after week. Believe it or not, I do think that this beautiful guy turned American Idol to Adam Lambert’s Show with other contestants as mere guests. Am sorry, guys…but that’s the true. Every week people tuned in to their telly just to watch what this guy going to do to entertain them. Yeah, for the first time in Idol’s history, people witnessed a guy who was there not just to compete and win the title which drive them to millions of Dollar recording contract, but also to entertain. He was there to perform, despite on anything that people said about him, he was there to be a star. Well, he was born to be one, as since his early age he knew what he wanted in life and stick with it. So yeah, Adam Lambert with his bold and daring style, gave American Idol something to watch and he was succeed making this show not so boring as it did since it was been on for eight years already. Well, I guess America did it again as they did to Chris Daughtry a couple of seasons ago. Despite on how was Daughtry said that he is not so much an Adam Lambert’s fan but America did the same thing to both of them for different reasons.
I can not believe in this super power and famous as modern country as they said about America, somehow, still intimidated by a guy who knew who he is and where he stands. A guy who is non parentally approved and not afraid to wears make up, glam glittery, and those unusual costumes that make him looks so flamboyant and unique. With Adam, you could do anything that was probably only happened in your wildest dreams and transform it to real life. He is amongst all of those superstar who never say no to any challenges. He loves what he does and continue doing it whether people like it or not. He rocks! In the other hand, Kris Allen is a married College student in his hometown, Conway, Arkansas, who worked as a Church worship leader before this big thing happened to him. He is, in fact, a parentally approved type of guy next door (boring) who you would be proud to introduce to your mom. And don’t even think of doing anything dangerous with him. And, if am not wrong, I do remember that during his audition last year, the judge Simon Cowell did say that his modesty was kind of put him off. Well, guess what, me too! Boohoo!
Okay, that was personal matters, but if you watched the show week after week, then you will understand what am talking about. Adam was a better contestant by far compare to Mr. Humble, Kris. And once again, this is a singing competition, and Adam is by miles a better singer to Mr. Modest, Kris which is probably a better musician to Adam. I never said that Kris was not good, in fact that he performed ‘Ain’t No Sunshine’ so beautiful on the round one finale and Simon called it as his round and am totally agreed with him. But, I didn’t think that Adam was not good on his first performance last night, he was just as good as he was in the other nights so that we couldn’t see anything special anymore like what we saw in Kris. But on second and third rounds, Adam was the whole way through, even Simon said the second round was a million percent goes to Adam. So, what went wrong?
Well, this a competition that decided by people’s vote, so yeah, there is a lucky factor taking place in this arena. The battle was not only between the contestants but also between the fans. That is why, Simon who is, for some reasons, always has a strong feeling during the competitions and the only judge whose voice is always contribute the vote, reminds every Adam’s fan out there to keep in voting. I guess, somehow, deep down there, he knew that Adam was going to be David Archuletta from last season this year. We certainly won’t forget how David Archuletta, who was favorite from day one, got beat by another David, as a Cook, that is (thanks God for that). But this last year thing, I thought America got it right, as Archuletta is a Kris Allen of this season to me. So save, boring, sweet and guy next door type of person. Someone who will put you to sleep when he companied you. I know many people still can not take a guy who wears make up, nail polish, and costumes yet. For some reasons, which to me is ridiculous, they are kind of intimidated with a guy such as Adam Lambert one. Well, I can not dictated how people think, though, so yeah…that is their prerogatives. Beside, Kris was not that bad and to be honest with you, I think he needs to win this competition so that he can sell some records. Adam? I don’t think he needs to win anything now, as he build his fan base quite all right now, so he will be a superstar no matter what. Paula even said that he’ll becomes an iconic. Well, I know what you‘re going to say, who wants to know what Paula thinks anyway, but hey, for the first time in my life I am agree with her in this thing. Adam is going to be big just by being Adam. Girls love him, gays love him, and so do guys who are not intimidated with their identities. So yeah, for me Adam still rocks and guyliner is hot!
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Best Friend Forever (A Birthday Tribute)

I want to tell you a story about me and my dearest best friend who is been my sidekick since I can remember. Yeah, it does feel like she was there with me all of my life and I couldn’t even mention one of my best moment without mention her. Since we were in Junior High to now days, she was always there with me. I think the only period of my life that she wasn’t involved was probably when we were in our Senior High because both of us went to a different school, but still, we stayed in touch and met every now and then. Then we went to the same University and took the same class, so yeah, we were kind of item in different meaning. When we were in Uni, actually we hanged out with different crowds, as I was more like calm type of person compare to her lively attitude. She was a bubble type of girl who was always lightning up the party while I was more like stay in the shadow of the crowd. I am an introvert type of girl who found it hard to just say hello to anyone, while she is, in the other hand, always found it easy to make friends with anyone and not afraid to start a conversation. So yeah, we were kind of opposite type of girls but somehow find it suited each other very well.
Since we were together like forever, for some reasons, seems like we have this kind of telepathic thinking going on. She doesn’t need to say anything but just by looking to her eyes then I can tell what she’s been thinking, so does her to me. So don’t be surprise if one day you seen us having no conversation what so ever, just looked at each other’s eyes, then laughed our head off like there was something funny just been said. But the good thing is that we don’t share the same taste on guys, since I was more like tall and blonde type of guys while she was more like tall and dark type of guys. So yeah, we were never had any problem in that issue ever and got our type of guys all right now. One thing I love about her is that she can fill in my so called quietness with her so called craziness and together we can be even more crazy than everyone could imagine. Totally!
So today is her birthday and I dedicated this blog to her, my dearest best friend. She is not my inspirations, but she is my best friend. She is not my mentor, but she is my dearest friend. I won’t follow her foot steps as we are probably heading to our different directions. I won’t lead her way as she would probably won’t follow me anyway. But I will walk with her and be there for her as she was always there for me. She is my dearest best friend who complete my world amongst so many other things in this life. So happy birthday to you, my friend. Just remember that our friendship stays forever to the end of the day. It will last for eternity just like those stupid lyrics in some kind of boys band's song, ha ha ha..I love you..!
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Bali, May 21st 2009

To My Dearest Best Friend…Happy Birthday, Mum!! ♥

A Crazy Thing Called Love

How do you know that you’re in love with someone? A girl I know quite well always drive through the road that she’s not supposed to passed, in fact it’s an opposite direction, whenever she goes to work just so that she could passed the house of a guy that she likes so much. Sounds crazy, eh? But yeah, she does that every morning. A guy I know send flowers every day to a girl that he adores but he never has any courage to approach her, so yeah, he hopes that the flowers will do the talk for him. Another girl I know (yeah, I know many girls…hah!) always say the name of a guy that she loves so much, but not her boyfriend, in her pray every night before she goes to bed and hopes that God will deliver her messages to him. Weird? Yeah, you can say that, but in fact that many people does many stupid things in the name of love. When am in love, I sometime spend more times in front of the mirror tried to make myself looks good for him, but mostly, of course, I put it all in my writes. But when my friend took me for a ride with her car last time just to drive around and passed a restaurant belongs to a man that she likes so much, I was like, yeah…I have to write about this. My other friend who is normally not a patient type of girl, suddenly becomes softy and very patient when she deals with a guy whom she loves so much who is, according to us (her friends), a pain in the a*se. We were like, huh? Where is the girl that we knew all these times gone? Ah…love took her away.
So yeah, what is the craziest thing you’ve ever done in the name of love? When we were in Junior High, my dear cousin tattooed the name of a boy that she liked at that time with a permanent marker on her left foot. Back then I thought that she was crazy, but now, I was kind of understand it and it doesn’t seem so weird anymore. As for me when I was in Junior High, I was always came to school earlier so that I could see a boy who was my senior at that time because he was so cute and I liked him. And it made me had those enthusiast feelings about going to school everyday, hah! One of my friend back then, left a love letter in that boy locker told him that she was his secret admirer while one of my ex-boyfriends followed me all the way home so that he could talked to me before we became an item. Say what?
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My Special Thing (A Poem)

Some find it in their lover’s arms
Some find it in their children’s eyes
The special thing that complete you
That giving you those tingling in your heart
Some find it in the books that they’re read
Some find it in the words of others
A simple thing that makes you laugh
That makes you happy all the way through
Some find it in their mother’s voice
Some find it in the deepest friendship
Something that you will cherish
And remember it all in your memories
Some find it in their lover’s kiss
Some find it in their children’s weeps
A strong connection that makes you close
That makes you part of each other
Some find it in the roses petals
Some find it in a box of chocolate
The sweet feeling that warm you inside out
Knowing that someone love you, no matter what
And as for me, is waking up beside you
Feeling your heartbeat next to mine
Seeing the sunrise on your face
When I open my eyes and it’s you that I see first
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Glory-Glory Man United..!

Come on you Reds

Come on you Reds

Just keep your bottle and use your heads

For ninety minutes we'll let them know

It's Man United Here we go!

Glory-Glory Man United!!

United are once again champions of England and inevitably, it was achieved the hard way, with a nail-biting goalless draw against Arsenal at Old Trafford. A tense, nerve-wracking afternoon saw few chances at either at end, as a largely dour match dragged agonizingly to its conclusion. Hearts were in mouths for United fans throughout the afternoon, and never more than when Cesc Fabregas struck the post with six minutes remaining.
Victories over Manchester City and Wigan had the champions six points clear of second-placed Liverpool going into the match, meaning a point would secure a record-equaling 18th league title. Mindful of the dangers of playing for a draw, the Reds were quick out of the traps. I told you these guys are awesome, didn’t I?
Barely 15 seconds had passed before Cristiano Ronaldo got the better of Kieran Gibbs, exposing the space behind the young full-back to race onto Darren Fletcher’s through-ball. The Portuguese declined to continue his sprint, however, and his cross was cleared before it could reach Ryan Giggs. That early opening heralded a sustained spell of United pressure, which only served to heighten the expectant buzz which had hummed around Old Trafford long before kick-off.
However, Arsenal, still reeling from their Champions League exit at the hands of United, and the subsequent scrutiny of their silverware drought of recent years, were not at Old Trafford to simply roll over for the champions-elect.
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Source : MANUNITED.COM-THE OFFICIAL WEBSITE

We Could Be More Than Just Amazing (A Poem)

When I woke up this morning
And found myself alone in bed
All that I could think of is you
Here with me holding me tight
When you hold me in your arms
Can you feel my heartbeat in yours
Feel my deepest feeling to you
The warm feeling that is so amazing
When this feeling warm me up
All that I need is just a little patience
Until we means you and me again
Because together we could be more than amazing
Together we can face anything
As I can be your Beyonce and you can be my Jay
When we means you and me then others mean nothing
Because together we could be more than amazing
So don’t just stay with me only in the morning
Don’t just hold me when am sleep
But be with me whenever I need
Because together we could be more than amazing
You and me means holding hands
You and me means sharing hearts
You and me means making love
Because when you are with me, we could be more than just amazing
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Adam Or Kris?

For the last few years, Fox managed to make American Idol to becomes one show that attracted more and more viewers year after year. I was started watching this show since (I think) five years ago but never got into it until I spotted Chris Daughtry in this program, which became one of my favorite singer ever since. Then of course, who can forget the talented Mr. Cook from last year, so yeah, now am one of the fanatics.
Who knows how honest the vote tabulations on "American Idol" are? After all, no outside source verifies them. But no matter how Fox and the producers of the series managed to get here, they now have their most culturally potent finale ever in the showdown between Adam Lambert and Kris Allen, and believe it or not, both are my favorite since the beginning. So yeah, am so proud of them as am proud of myself by picking them. Each embodies an archetype of musical and sexual identity at least as old as television. And the choice viewers and voters make this week will have something very important to say about where we are as a nation and what kind of pop star we are willing to celebrate and embrace.
Allen is a direct descendant of Ricky Nelson, the youngest son of Ozzie and Harriet Nelson, of the white-picket-fence 1950's sitcom, "The Adventures of Ozzie & Harriet." A 1956 episode of the NBC series featured teenage Ricky Nelson forming a rock group to play at a high school dance. His first recording, "A Teenager's Romance," sold over a million copies in the real world. Ricky Nelson -- with his crew cut, penny loafers, V-neck sweater and guitar -- was a sex idol all right. The female, teen demographics for the series went through the roof once he started the band and launched a singing career. But he was the safe, TV-and-parent-approved version of teen sexuality in the 1950s -- chaperoned sock-hop dances in the high school gym with no slow, pelvis-to-pelvis-grind dancing.
In the other hand, Lambert featured a music icon who in those 1950s was recording songs like, It’s All Right, Mama and Hound Dog, who else, of course Elvis Presley, who was either being kept off network TV altogether -- or shown only from the waist up because of the nasty things censors thought his hips were saying to teen girls.
It goes without saying that the different between Nelson and Presley -- as for Allen and Lambert -- is that Presley (as Adam) was a non parentally approved, bad-boy sex in the backseat of a hot car parked down by the deep, dark river with lots of pelvis-to-pelvis grinding in the midnight hour. Yeah! Lambert's best performances embody that sense of transgression -- and then some. The "then some" includes many of the rock transgressors who have come since Presley: Mick Jagger, David Bowie, Prince and, perhaps, even Cher (this is not the place to argue about where camp meets transgression with her).
And this is where things get most interesting with Lambert. After the sexual revolution of the 1960s, there was hardly an aspect of heterosexual behavior or identity that was widely considered to be transgressive any more. But then came androgyny with Jagger, glitter and glam with Bowie -- and whatever with Prince which Lambert channel all of that, and it is at the heart what makes him so dynamic to watch on stage. In the middle of sounding exactly like Steven Tyler on an Aerosmith song, he'll suddenly soar into a falsetto scream somewhere up in the Holy Land of Patti Labelle -- and he'll stand there looking contemptuously like he could hold the note forever if he wanted to. Wow!
Which brings us to gender and sexual orientation. (You knew we were going to wind up here, didn't you?) After having everyone from Simon Cowell to "The New York Times" acting like it was all right to just assume Lambert is gay -- in part because of his Joan-Jett-like dyed blue-black hair, earrings, painted nails as well as the ability to hit those LaBelle-like notes -- we have now come to a kind of don't-ask/don't-tell relationship with the 27-year-old singer from San Diego and his sexual orientation.
And that kind of thinking is further suggested by the fact that the "American Idol" producers offer only sketchy details of Lambert's personal life while they give us lots of Allen and more of the recently eliminated Danny Gokey's world than anyone could possibly want. If Lambert is gay and he says so, it could be a "huge step forward for the show." But either way, it will be watershed if he is the one chosen the new "Idol" by viewers this week. For more than five decades, prime-time network TV has taught us to embrace the safer, less dangerous and daring model of behavior -- Fonzie Fonzarelli instead of Marlon Brando's leather-jacketed character in "The Wild One."
So yeah, this is our chance to choose the artist rather than the mere performer -- the musical tightrope walker willing to break taboos and cross boundaries. As David Zurawik from Baltimore Sun asked on his article Z on TV, do we dare?
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The Olsen Twins Phenomenon

When I was a young girl like when I was thirteen years old, I was always wanted to be an adult and treated as an adult. I started read teenage magazines and even sometimes women’s one like the one that my mom always bought for herself. I was always dressed up like an adult so that people would take me more seriously. I still remember back then my fashion icon was like Demi Moore who was in her twenties at that time, but somehow, I want to be like her because she seemed so mature to me and yeah, I was always copied her styles.
Then when I was in my twenties, somehow the trend of fashion was like back to sixties or seventies, or something like that. And for the same reason, out of nowhere, Audrey Hepburn was became an icon again. It’s either her for civilized people or Janis Joplin with her hippies style for revolutionist. So yeah, since I wasn’t too keen on dirty hippies look, then of course, I preferred to followed Audrey Hepburn’s steps in fashion. I even had a pin-up t-shirt of her back then, hah!
When I was in my twenties, I thought that people in their thirties are old. I was even afraid to reach that state at some points. But surprisingly, now that am in my early thirties and I feel the same like when I was in my twenties. Not much change here, in fact, my man even said that I was more like thirteen going on thirty kind of girl. So yeah, for the same reasons, maybe, my fashion icon at the moment are like the Olsen Twins, Mischa Barton, or even Lindsay Lohan…euw! What is going on here? It’s not that something that I made up, but yeah, it happens to me. I don’t understand myself and asked the same question over and over again. I was like, is there anything wrong with me? Or that’s just a normal thing happens to normal people? I don’t want people to think of me as I was tried to hide my age, but I just don’t like to dressed up like a mature type of person anymore. Suddenly my style is getting younger while my age is getting older. Do I need help? But I like my style at the moment and I don’t want to change myself to become someone else but me. I love myself just the way she is. Hope this is not one of those ’middle age crisis’ symptoms, because am not that old yet, aren’t I?
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Shamed On You!

Last night when I pulled my car out of the parking lane there was this motor bike came out of nowhere on the pavement side of the road that supposed to be for pedestrians and hit my car from the side. And there was an old man ride this bike and fell off right next to my car. I was kind of felt sorry for him since he is indeed an old man, but because of he was the one who hit my car and damaged it quite a bit, so of course, I expected him to at least say sorry or something, right? But nope, he pulled his bike up and drove off to the villa not too far from the scene then run in. I was watching all time doing his some kind of action while I drove my car back to the parking side, and yeah, I remember his face clearly. So yeah, for sure, I took a walk down to this villa just to talk to him and at least he can give me details of his insurance so I could collect them, just like a normal accident happened.
I went there just to find that the lobby for the villa was empty, nobody was there, not even a bloody receptionist! Waited a while, the old guy who hit my car came out with the exact same outfit, only this time he brought a helmet with him which he didn’t have it earlier. So yeah, I confronted him about the accident which only happened like two minutes ago, but he didn’t admitted it. Well, maybe the accident gave him an amnesia so that he couldn’t remember anything. Beside, as I said before, he’s an old man, so maybe there was an age issue also here.
Then I went home with this upset feeling inside me that makes me cried while driving. I have so many things in my mind that I wanted to say but I couldn’t. Hey, I told you that I’m not good in confrontation, aren’t I? So yeah, I was just went home crying over my weakness and hating myself for that. In the other hand, my man cheered me up and said that was one of my jinx followed me, as a joke of course. I was okay now, but still, I really hope that that idiot would have a very bad karma for what he did and perhaps he can just get run over by someone so that he can feel what I felt last night. I really hate people who refused to be responsible for what he or she did. That was just a coward attitude and you should be ashamed with yourself, specially if you are old enough to be wise and sensible. Shamed on you!
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What Is The Worst That Could Happen? ~ Part 2

I am a very clumsy girl. I drop almost everything that I hold, all the times. I hit everything in front of me, no matter how big it is. You might find hard to believe this, but yeah, I even hit my pool table which was standing right in the middle of my living room once. Everyone was like, how could you? Considering the size of the table, it is impossible for someone to missed it and run to it, right? Well, not for me, my friends. The alley roof at my shop’s building was leaking and the maintenance guy put a big bucket right there to hold the water from running around when it's rain, and guess what, I kicked that big bucket when I passed it this afternoon. I know! It seemed impossible, but yeah, if you know me well enough then you won’t be surprise at all. Last month I went out with some friends and the next day I found my leg all cut and bruised. If I was a normal girl then I should be surprised, right? But because of am not, then I was just like, oh…it must be from my night out since I know for sure that I must hit so many tables and chairs at the bar after a few drinks. So yeah, I was kind of deal with it already. My man, who has been with me for almost ten years now, knew this exactly so that he never shows his sympathy anymore. He was like, okay…so you hit something? What’s next? He even said “Enjoy your trip?” every time I tripped on something. Not because of he doesn’t care, but yeah, I can tripped at the same spot a few times so that he was kind of gave up sympathy long time ago. Hah!
Another thing that you would probably find hard to believe that for some reasons, the jinx was always follow me. Last week when I drove to work quite early in the morning, I decided to take the long way so that I won’t be too early and guess what, half way down the road, there was this big ceremony went on so that the Banjar (village’s police) closed the road down and I have to drove around to my normal route back again. So yeah, I was definitely not early at all afterwards. Then arrived at my shop just to found that we had a power cut scheduled by PLN (Electricity’s Company) for the day, surprised-surprised! When I call my man to told him about these, he was like, don’t jumped off of your chair yet because everything is always come in three, so yeah, I’ll wait if I were you. Then there it was…on my way home that night I was caught in a massive traffic jam as there was a multiple crashed of cars like five hundred meters in front of me. So instead of taking a normal fifteen or sometime twenty minutes of driving home from work, it took me one and a half hour that night. Talking about jinx and mambo jumbo things!
So yeah, I know in the Secret book they said that you have to think positive so that any negative things won’t get near you, but hey, believe me when I said that I was never ever think of anything negative to comes around me. I was never think of going to the bank and hope for their computer system to be down so that I can’t do any bank’s transaction what so ever, no way, but it just happened. So as for someone who does have a positive thinking always said, “What is the worst that could happen?” As for me, try everything!
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Girls Don’t Fall In Love Just For Fun

Don’t love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
(Love Me For A Reason - Boyzone)

This is a true story about a girl I know who live in a great life with her boyfriend for quite sometime now and as a human being she just feel kind of bored with her so called comfort life and want to try something different. So yeah, one night when she went out for a dinner with some friends, there’s a guy approached her and was like chased her wherever she goes. Suddenly, she felt alive again and decided to have some fun with this new guy behind her boyfriend back, of course. But she made a promise to herself that she will stop all of these as soon as the thing getting too far.
So yeah, fun it is as she planned it. But she made a big mistake by not telling the new guy that she was indeed has a boyfriend and only interested to have fun. And as you guess, the thing between them got too serious because this new guy has some hope on them as he didn’t have a clue about who she really is, and as planned, she knew that she has to leave now, but can she? Here is the thing, when you spent one time with a guy, you would probably keep your promise that this was only for fun. But after spent so many times with one particular guy, then of course, the thing started to become more serious.
She knew and realized that these all are a hundred percent her fault, so yeah, she then decided to leave this new guy and back to her real life again. She wished that the thing is as simple as it looks from the outside, but it doesn’t. First, everything is going not so bad, even if the new guy couldn’t accepted the explanation that she gave but yeah, after a while he can deal with it and started his new life with this new girl who is single and available. They still seeing each other for fun, as she wanted before. So yeah, everyone should be happy, right? She should be happy that now she’s back to her boyfriend and her so called comfort life, right?
Nope, of course she is happy to be back to her normal life without any dramas and lies anymore, but still, she wants the new guy for herself. Selfish? You can say that, but deep inside her heart she started to feel something for the new guy and she couldn’t let their so called love gone just like that. She doesn’t want to be with him because she loves her boyfriend but she couldn’t let him for a new girl either. Because believe it or not, she loves him too. She wants him too. She just doesn’t want to give up her life for him, but she loves him. And seeing him with a new girl makes her sad and yeah, maybe you can say jealous, even if she refused to admit it, but yeah, you can say that. Well, I guess they were right when they said that girls don’t fall in love just for fun. And now she has to pay her own mistake with her own feeling. Ouch! So much for her having fun things!
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To my homie beloved friend, thanks for the inspiration...and yeah, for those who’s not even in the picture, I will appreciate if you just f**k-off!!!

My Mother, My Hero (Happy Mother’s Day, Mom!)

Maybe it is hard for you guys to believe when I said that my mom is a cool person. Since I was a kid I always adore her as a woman, a mother, and a wife. She can be a friend, a mentor, or even an adviser to everybody who knows her. And yeah, she is quiet famous wherever she goes. Even though she is now getting old, but she is still the coolest mom on earth.
When I was a teenager, I could talk about almost everything with her. Even my best friend always came to her every time she has a problem. As you know, it was not easy for teenagers to speak to their parents. But with my mom, it was different. When I decided to move to Bali, my whole family against my decision, but not my mom. I still remember when she asked me, ”If I ask you not to go to Bali, would you stay?” I said, “No,” And she smiled and said, “Then go, I will talk to your father,” How cool was that? Later on I found out that she did that because she didn't want me to left my house with no blessing, as she knew me inside out, so she knew for sure that I would go anyway with or without my family's blessing. So yeah, she kept her broken heart just for herself and walked me to the door with a smile that I won't forget for the rest of my life. When my boyfriend back at college purposed to me after I passed my comprehensive exams and got my degree, she was the only person who completely understood when I turned him down. Even though she really loved that guy, but she was the only one who supported me with my decision. And because of her I became who I am now, and I am so grateful for that.
Today is Mother’s Day and I have nothing to say except thank you to my mother, the strongest woman I knew, the coolest mom on earth, and the best wife for a man. Thank you for making me who I am now and thank you for who am not. I love you, mom. I hope you are happy and proud of us, your children, as we are very proud of you. I thank you God for making me as one of your children. Happy Mother’s Day, mom! I love you with all my heart!
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Drive It Like You Stole It

Yeah, that was what my dad said to me after he taught me how to drive when I was only thirteen years old. It didn’t go well since I crashed the car just about a few hundred meters away from my house on the way home, but yeah, that words stay in the back of my mind for a very long time. And I do believe that somehow I have this talent of driving a car from my dad’s side of blood. Well, I have to admitted to you guys that I do drive quite fast for girl’s standard. And when am behind a wheel, I feel like am in control and loving every minute of it. Even when am stuck in the traffic, I enjoy it as long as am with my beemers. I sometime even took a long way to go to work just so I can drive my car a little bit more. Yeah, am a geek.
But you know what irritated me the most when am driving? It’s someone who drives her or his car like ten kmph and took the inside lane. Who taught them to drive, by the way? Don’t they know that inside lane is a fast lane? Seriously, people like that should not allowed on the street because they can caused accidents sooner or later. And what about those who answer their phone without any hands-free kit and sometime they even doing a text messaging while they drive? So irresponsible and dangerous! Well, have to admitted, though, that that is the way of people live here, so yeah, I sometime tolerated it but when they doing that and stay on the inside lane deliberately so they caused a traffic jam but refused to move over, that is so annoying and yeah, it makes me swear like a drunk truck driver. Hate it!
The best time to drive, I think, is at late night when the road is pretty much empty. But the problem is I only drive late whenever I came home for a night out which probably the best time for me to drive because for some reason the alcohol kind of relax you. I don’t know about you guys, but after a couple of drinks, I always thought that I drive pretty well. I can hit 150 kmph and drive from Kuta area in Bali to my house which probably like ten kilometers for only six minutes which quite fast considering Bali’s small road. So yeah, I enjoy it so much, but since last December after a dear friend of mine got into a serious accident and smashed her car badly when she drive under the influence, I was kind of getting easy on that matter now. Am not that brave after all. But yeah, I still love driving though. If some people said that shopping and eating are stress released, as for me, driving is. Well, shopping too, for sure, since am a normal girl like others, but driving is my number one’s. So yeah, I admitted it that I have an addiction and it’s driving my beemers. And of course, as my dad taught me, whenever I’m behind a wheel then I am in control, and yeah, fasten your seatbelt guys…‘cause I drive it like I stole it!
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Sympathy For The (Red) Devil

United beat Arsenal 3-1 at the Emirates on Tuesday night to reach the Champions League final, but celebrations were soured after Darren Fletcher's red card means the Scot will miss the match. Fletcher was dismissed on 75 minutes after Italian referee Roberto Rosetti adjudged the midfielder had brought down Cesc Fabregas inside the Reds’ penalty area. TV commentators and pundits all agreed the decision was harsh, while Sir Alex said Fletcher had been “terribly unlucky”.
As for me, actually I missed the tackle when it happened, but watching the replay I think it was a clean tackle and nothing was wrong about it at all. I think, as we can see, the ball has moved in a different direction, away from Cesc Fabregas, and I also think that Fletcher won the ball too. So yeah, I don’t think he deserved it but that’s the game and as you know the team can not appeal the referee’s decisions in European games so I guess we just have to deal with it, right?
Rooney, my man, admitted to reporters when he was doing the interview after the game that the mood in dressing room after the final whistle had been affected by Fletcher's dismissal. I can believe that since in last night’s game and in all of the big games for the last few years, the Scot man was always been a key player for the team. Losing him on the final would hurt the team badly, even though I am sure Sir Alex will figure something out to cover this, but of course the team won’t be the same without him. And to miss a big game such a Champions League final is a heart breaking for any player, so yeah, am happy that my team is about one step away from the trophy but my heart is with Fletcher at the moment.
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Who They…Who They…Who They F*ckin’ Good!

My team beat Arsenal at the Emirates for the first time last night on the second leg of Champions League semi final and it was so cool! Why? Because I just knew yesterday actually that my team never beat Arsenal at the Emirates before and for me it was awesome! Here is the thing, I hate Arsenal passionately, in particular are Arsene Wenger and Thiery Henry. I know, Henry is not in the team anymore but still, I hate the team to my bones and fleshes. For some reasons, those two guys are in the bottom of my favorite people list. I have nothing against Barcelona team but since Henry joined them, I was like finished with that Spaniard.
Then let’s make it short, yeah, Manchester United is my all time favorite football team so that my wildest dream is to be in Old Trafford, watching one of the games, if I could pick the time maybe on Boxing Day and at the end of the game have a little chat with Sir Alex Ferguson, the man of the show? Wow! I adore Alex Ferguson with his genius tactic in field and respect him for his strong leadership. I still remember how he finished with Beckham who used to be his golden boy when he started to acted like a superstar. Fergie won’t take those kind of attitude in his team, na-ah! Well, I don’t think Beckham did anything bad though, but maybe his wife superstar lifestyle got into him at the end and effected his play. I still thought that he, Beckham of course, is a good guy and has a killer free kick which in many occasion saved the team. So yeah, I feel sorry for him for loving his wife that much so it ruined his career badly. I told you too much love will kill you, didn't I? Duh!

But I have to admitted that actually it was the old Man-United that I love so much, when Keane, Solksjaer, and Veron are still there. I think the old players that still there are only Giggs, Scholes, and Neville, as for Gary that is, because you do know of course that Phillip left the team long time ago. And last week Giggs just got a title as the best player of the season that a little bit caused a controversy whether he deserved it or not, but the fact is that he has made more appearances he even surpassed Sir. Bobby Charlton's previous record of 758 games last year when he helped The Reds secured a third European Cup Triumph - the second of his career - in Moscow on May 21st 2008 and won more honours than any other United player in the club's illustrious history. Despite on how good Ronaldo is, I don’t have any connections with him what so ever. As for me he was kind of a little bit drama queen and whenever he scores, for some reasons, he was always knew where the cameras are so that he can pose for them. What an actor! But, he is good, indeed. I do like Rooney though, God please, don’t let him follow Beckham’s steps to be a superstar since his wife is kind of in every headlines at the moment as well. Coleen do this, Coleen do that, so not important!
Back to the game last night, I was so excited to found out that my team went through to the final of Champions League after beat the team that got into my nerves forever. I don’t know where do I get this such a hate feeling from and to make it worst, I even hate France National Football team because of those two! They both are French, aren’t they? Hah!
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No Facebook For One Week

Here is the deal, started from today my friend and I decided not to open our Facebook for one week. Nothing special about this, of course, apart from this site was taking over our life lately. No harmed, though, but we were kind of miss our normal life. When we told our men about this, they were like, yeah it’s time for you to get a life! We were like, huh? Well, we were actually not that bad with this so called a friendship network, but yeah, whenever we were at work and had nothing to do then of course, we will check on this site. Duh! And just any normal thing that you do constantly in life then you got bored, so do we. We were bored with this site for that some kind of reasons. And hey, there are a lot of things happened out there while we drown or head into our laptops visiting this page, right?
So there you go, today is our first day without Facebook and we are doing so well. We don’t even miss anything and of course, we still can read all of our messages in Facebook through our Blackberry phone, so nothing really change actually. Hey, that was the idea, right? Having a Blackberry phone because of its pushed button technology that makes you easily accessing any page that you like without logging into the Internet first? But yeah, I have to admitted to you guys, when I just arrived at work early this morning because I have to trained my new staff, the first thing that I almost did when I turn my laptop on was log into Facebook. Hey, don’t blame me, after doing it for so many times, it was kind of auto pilot to your mind, right? But luckily I remembered our deal, so I stopped right there and open my blogspot page instead, hah!
Guess what, today I finished my Financial Report for Tax needed which I started two months ago but never done because of this stupid thing. So much for a friendship network while I actually don’t really have many friends at all. I don’t even know why did I spend so much time on this site, maybe because of it has so many cool applications which actually wasting so many times of me. And let me tell you a funny fact that I found about this phenomenon. When I log into this page during working hours, I found it so many people in my friend’s list online at the same time, average of 30-40 people a day. I was like, don’t they have anything to do at work? Because for me, once I tuned into this page, that was it. My life is finished. One of the cool guys that I know said that Facebook is for people who has no life, is it? Well, that was what my man thinks as well, but is it? I was actually left this network for almost six months last year because of this bored reason too, but at some point, a dear friend made me join this page again and get really into it even if I don't want it. But yeah, let’s see how I would doing in this whole week without Facebook then I will write my opinion about that. One thing for sure that I was just finished one of my job just because I wasn’t allowed myself to log into this page today. Luckily I work for myself so nobody will scream at me when I don’t do my job, well, apart from my taxman of course. But yeah, we’ll see.
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If I Could Paint The Sky (A Poem)

If I could paint the sky pink
And make myself fall into it
Do you think the rainbow would pass me by?
Cause you know I would walk a thousand miles
If I could just have you by my side
If I could just see your smile back
If I could just feel you heart beat in mine
If I could just see you tonight

If I could paint the sky blue
And make myself fall into it
Do you think clouds would pass me by?
Cause you know I would walk a thousand miles
If I could just put my hands around yours
If I could just feel your kiss on my lips
If I could just have you in my arms
If I could just hold you tonight

If I could paint the sky white
And make us fall into it
Do you think time would pass us by?
'Cause you know I would walk a thousand miles
If I could just be with you, even for a while
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