Happy Nyepi Day

Today is a Nyepi Day in Bali. Nyepi means quiet in English. Actually Hinduism celebrate their new year today. As for celebration and part of tradition, they celebrate it with four things that they should not do which are not lit any fire, not leaving the house, not doing any work, and not having any entertainment. With all of those, they believe that they will be reborn as new human with new soul.
For non Hinduism who live in Bali, this celebration became a little bit weird. Most of them check themselves in a hotel because of they can not use any electricity at home. Some of them even leave the island to avoid this day. Well, actually you can use electricity, as long as you cover all of the window with dark shades so that the lights that you use inside the house will not get through it. But maybe for some people it is too much to stay at home for twenty four hours, using as small lights as you can and trying not to make any noises.
This year, for the first time in my life in Bali, I have it at home. And until now half day passed, it was not as difficult as I thought. Normally, I always leave the island to avoid this day. I thought it was going to be a torture for me if I stay at home. But surprisingly I was quiet enjoyed it. I still can swim at my back garden, still can watch television even with a very low volume, still can watch movies, and still can use electricity even only with a small amount. And believe it or not, it was nice to have a day just to contemplated yourself.
Most people thought this day going to be a very difficult day, but one thing that they did not know that on this day Bali can reduce its pollutions as much as 30% of its normal pollutions. Just imagine, no factory open on this day, no car on the street, and less electricity. What a beautiful day. And as for the people, staying at home for twenty four hours straight is not so bad. You can start reading all those books that you never read, watch all the movies that you never have time to watch, and how about spending quality times with your family? Sounds boring? Well, just try it. You will know what I am talking about.
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Please Be Suffer With Me

I had a fight with my man last night over a stupid problem. I wanted to spent time with my friends but he wanted me to come home and had dinner with him. Of course, I chose to be with my friends and yeah, so we had an argument. I was so upset about it then out of nowhere I text my sort of ex boyfriend who is still pretty much in touch with me, as a matter of fact, he still hopes that we can be together again. Because of that, I was thinking that he would probably tried his best to cheer me up. Did he?

For the first half an hour yeah, he did. But after a while, he tried to convinced me to leave my man and be with him again. Oh no, he didn’t say that literally, but he said that I should not come home to my man and if I need a place to cooling myself down then his place is welcome for me. Of course, that was not something that I will do but for a split second it did come in to my mind. Thanks God that my common sense was still pretty much taking control.

When I told my ex that I can’t do that, as a man of course he couldn’t take it. No, we didn’t have any argument because I didn’t say anything back to him but yeah, he did say something that hit me badly. He said that I was an ignorant and selfish human being who has no feeling what so ever. Well, that is true though and I never runaway of those facts. But he did say something else that really kind of wake me up and smell the coffee of how bad I am as a human being. Do you really want to know what did he say?

Well, he said that when I feel something hurting me then I want the whole world suffer with me too. Confuse? Me too. Then here is his explanation. He said that I only think of myself and how I am not supposed to be hurt by anyone. When my man wants me to spend time with him but I don’t want to then I won’t do that without thinking of how does he feel about that. I just do whatever I want to do. But when he is upset then we have an argument, I then come to my ex without thinking of his feeling either. Then when my ex try to help me with what he thought as a way out of my problem, I didn’t do that either. I still come back to my man without any consideration of my ex’s feeling. All that I care is just myself and how the whole world should be suffer with me when I do. I was like, OMG am I that bad? Am I a bad person?

So yeah, this morning I woke up with these thoughts in my mind. I couldn’t sleep at all last night thinking of how could I be that person? I really hate myself now.

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10 Things I Hate About You (Part 2)

I hate the way you speak to me

With your so called self esteem that drive me crazy

I hate the way you ask me a favor

More like you’re giving me an order

I hate when you start questioning me

Makes me feel like a guilty party

I hate when you ask me to stay in

Because I have so many reasons to be out there with my friends

I hate when you are showing your jealousy

It’s not like am cheating on you anyway

I hate when you said that you’re understand me

Because the fact is you didn’t

I hate the look in your eyes when you’re angry

So sharp that could harm me badly

I hate the words that came from your mouth when we were arguing

So definite and all that I can do is crying

I hate the way you wipe my tears when it happened

Because it makes me falling for you once again

But the most important thing is I hate myself

For not having a courage to leave you when am supposed to

Bali, March 18^th 2009

Adam Lambert Rocks!

Did you guys watched the final thirteen of American Idol on telly just now? OMG, I was so blown away with Adam Lambert performance when he sang Michael Jackson’s White Or Black with a touch of his rock essences. He was so cool. Not to mention his gothic style of fashion with his pitch black hair, black nail polish, and black mascara. Seriously, he’s hot! And I am normally not into guys with make up, but this one is different. He is extremely hot!
I was watching him since the beginning actually. Even if Simon did not really like him when he saw him on the audition, well, it was not because of he wasn’t good, but Simon thought that he was too theatrical, but I loved him. He was my idol from the start, and this a little bit unusual for me since I was normally got my idol picked up in the middle round since I need to make sure that he is really good first. But this time I picked him up from the start, that is how good he was.
So yeah, for this season of American Idol, I am so into Adam Lambert. He is hot-hot-hot. And guess what, I was just put my black nail polish on, just like him, hah! I don’t care how embarrassed it was to blog about this, but I’ll do it anyway because I am so in love with Adam Lambert. Even my status in Yahoo Messenger and my Blackberry said so!
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Queen of Hearts Charity Dinner

In conjuction with the International Women's Day which celebrated worldwide on March, 8th 2009, Amazone, all female DJ agency, is hosting a Charity Dinner on Thursday, March 12th, 2009 at hu'u Bar Bali and nutmegs Restaurant where the fund collected from the dinner and auctions (holiday packages) will be put towards improving women's education and living standards supported by R.O.L.E Foundation Bali (http://www.rolefoundation.org/)

Amazone, all female DJ agency, is based in Kuala Lumpur Malaysia, represented by DJ Niina, DJ Supercozy, and DJ Danny Fry colaborate with chef Philip Mimbimi as he amalgamates his 4 course menu at Rp 350,000 nett per person. Dinner guests will recieve a complimentary hu'u sangria upon arival (flyer attached).

Will love to see you there to join us in restoring the world for our future generations.

Love,

--dewi**

Days Of Thunder

For this last ten days, I had to put my beemers in the BMW garage here in Bali because of the problem with its radiator. When I took it to the garage ten days ago, the technicians there said it would take them three to four days to fixed it. I was like, okay. I can deal with three or four days without my car all right. So yeah, I left my car in the garage without any question, all I care was my car getting fixed and it’s in a good hands. Is it?
Nope. After waited for three days I didn’t get any news what so ever. So I thought, okay, maybe tomorrow. Is it? Nope. The fourth day, I still didn’t hear anything from them. So of course, I called them and asked what was going on? And guess what, without any doubt, the head of technicians named Jaka said that they discovered more problems with my car and tried to explained it to me which made me even more confused. So I was like, okay just do whatever you need to do with my car and call me for the estimation of how much it’s going to cost me. He was like, okay.
One week passed, still no news from him. And yeah, we are talking about a BMW garage here in Bali. The garage that supposed to have a perfect services considering the car is quite expensive and luxury. But nah, not here. So after waited for one week then I called him to asked about the estimation and he was like, oh sorry, I forgot. Yeah right, and he called himself a head of technicians? Give me a break! Then after a while he finally got back to me and told me that the estimation was about 1,700 bucks. A quite bit of money considering it was only the problem with radiator from the beginning but I don’t care, I need my car so I was like, okay.
The tenth day my car with them, they were still didn’t call me or anything. And this is so ridiculous. I am not a pushy type of girl but at least they can just picked up their phone and told me when can I get my car back, but they didn’t. So yeah, I called them again yesterday and guess what my car was ready, surprised-surprised! But the bad news was their estimation was wrong and I ended up paying them closed to 2,000 bucks but I don’t really bother. I am so happy that I got my car back until I was going to go home from my shop and my car would not even started. And we are not talking about the next day after I got my car back, but this is the same day. It was like three and a half hours after I picked up my car from the garage. This is so annoying and ridiculous! I was just thinking where the h*ll did they get these technicians from? Did they even get any training before? So incompetent!
So yeah, now my car is back in the garage. Well, actually after the garage sent their men last night, my car was back to normal and they said it was just a problem with fuel pump which was a little bit dirty but they couldn‘t cleaned it up last night because they didn‘t have any tools with them. They said that I could take my car home all right last night but I don’t want to take any risk so I sent it back to the garage and told them to make sure that every single pieces with my car is okay then I will have it back. And I don’t know how much will it costs me later but I just want my car to be perfect as it was always be. After all, it’s my baby!
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Happy Birthday, Father!

Dear father,
Today is your birthday and I don’t even know what to give you. I realize how I don’t really know anything about you. I spoke to you on the phone a couple days ago, but that was only a formal conversation. We never even share any joke or laugh together. Your military background makes me a little bit uncomfortable to show you any emotion, since you never did it. You seemed like a cool or even cold person. You never kiss us good night, good morning, or congratulate us when we won anything. Everyone said that you are a very good person, but for me you are just my dad. A person who I should respect and obey. The only childhood memory that I remember about us was when you taught me how to drive a car and on our way home you let me drove and I crashed the car. That was almost twenty years ago but it still stays in my head just like it was on yesterday. Your hectic schedule made us met rarely. And even on holiday you prefer going hunting with your friends rather than stayed at home or went picnic with us. All I know that you are a quiet man. When you spent Idul Fitri holiday in my house last time, even then I could not spoke to you comfortably. I felt like there is a wall between us and I never even try to climb it just to come to you. Never. I don’t know why, but one thing for sure that none of us ever tried. We both feel happy with this condition, so be it.
Well father,
Today is your birthday but I don’t know how to show you how much I love you. I adore you as a man, as a father, as a husband, and as a human being. A lot of people look up to you, so do us, your children. I am very proud of you and I hope that you are proud of me too. So, good morning father. And happy birthday to you!
Bali, March 3rd 2009
To My Beloved Father
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Loving You As A Rainbow

Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
For me today you look like a blue
Since today I am pretty much missing you
Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
Yesterday you seemed a little bit yellow
Because yesterday you made me mellow
Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
I hope tomorrow you are not going to be red
Because that means that you make me mad
Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
So everyday you will always be pink
Because everyday I am in love with you, I think
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The Toughest Decision To Make

On Wednesday last week, I have got to went back to Veterinary Clinic for my cat, Frosty. His FUS problem was getting even worse. I found him last week with his pupil as small as a stripe line after refused to eat anything for almost three days. I knew straight away there was something wrong with him so I called his Vet.
Today, I went to visit him at the clinic. He was a little bit better and his pupil back to normal. I felt sorry for him seeing all those I.V and catheter tugged in to his skinny body. And it was really broke my heart when he stood up and tried to walk toward me and my man as he probably thought that we came to picked him up and took him home. Oh…I’m sorry baby, it was not the time yet.
After finished cheer him up a little bit, we went to talked with the Vet and the news that we got made me even more miserable. The Vet asked me and my man to started thinking about the worse scenario. Since this is the sixth times he went back to the clinic so obviously this situation is stressful for him as for us. And because of the caused of the disease is still unsure yet so there is no certain treatment can be done apart from a specific diet that he has to do. But, this was not worked on him either as we tried before. So, the Vet asked us to started thinking about putting him down because we have to think about his uncomfortable situation with his bladder that always makes him dripping all over the place and how difficult for him just to do his pee but could not make it. The Vet said, maybe we have to pull him out of this misery and let him go. Or, the other thing that we can do is to do the operation to cut off his penis and make him became a female cat, but that does not make him stop dripping everywhere either and of course it’s going to make him even more miserable. A transsexual operation? I was like, no way, Jose! Not my baby!
As we went back home, my man tried to convinced me that that was probably the best thing to do considering how hard for us seeing him suffered like today. Maybe we have to let him go to a better place where he can get the cure for his condition. But, how could I? He is my baby! And isn’t it true that they said that cat has nine lives? And if this is his sixth times, he still got three other lives, isn’t he? And honestly, how could you make such a decision like that? Gosh, this is going to be the toughest decision to make for me! Help…anyone?
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You Are Not My Everything

The first time we met, I already knew that I had some kind of a feeling for you. But my common sense said that I had to pulled myself back as I did know that there wasn’t any future for us. As a matter of fact, there was no us. But as a man, you were convinced me that we should give it a try, so yeah, you won and I followed you even though during our journey together we had so many signs said that we were not meant for each other, but hey, they said love is blind and that was what happened, I supposed. I was in the middle of a bored term of my life. I don’t know why, maybe because of I have got so many things in life made me felt like my life was so flat, no challenged what so ever. Then I met you, a different kind of guy, so pushy, so manly, so arrogant, knew what you wanted in life, so full of confrontation, exactly what I was looking for in a guy. So yeah, I fell for you big time. Even though in your moody period, I still fell for you. Because for the first time, I was faced a guy who can control me and refused to spoiled me like other guys in my short list of boyfriends. Yeah, for the first time I listened to a man. For the first time, I compromised. For the first time, I negotiated my thought with yours. For the first time, I recognized us as a phrase, not like normally I only knew me, myself, and I. You changed me for better and I was grateful for that, I still do. But the thing is, you are not my everything. You are not the place where I stop stepping. It was so wrong what I did to you, but I can’t avoid the truth. You are just not the one and I was just not that in to you. I was fell for you, that’s the truth, but you are not my everything. So when it’s time for me to choose, I will choose him over you. I will stop my steps when I am with him. I will stop looking when I am right next to him. I will close my eyes when I sleep next to him. I will tight myself to his handcuffs. Because they said even an angel doesn’t have to has wings, doesn’t have to surrounded by a bright shiny spark, doesn’t have to looks beautiful, but if I compare his love over yours, even an angel knows who’s going to win. I wish I could say something different to you but I just couldn’t. I have to live in reality over a fantasy and yeah, you are a fantasy. My dreams, my sweet-sweet dreams. So if now that you are angry and hate me because of that, there is nothing I could do. But one thing for sure, I never think of you as a mistake. Because you are not. You are the truth, the painful truth that hit me badly. The next step for my grown up test and I think I passed it, don’t you?
“To My Holiday In Goa”
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Searching True Love

When I fall in love, it will be forever
Or I never fall in love again
When I fall in love, it will be completely
Or I never fall in love again
(When I Fall In Love - Nat King Cole)

How many true loves that you can have in your life? Wise man said that true love never dies and I bought that words since I was a kid. I was always dreaming that one day I will find a guy who I really love and love me back then we are going to get married and live happily ever after. Such a naïve dream, I know, but I was always had a feeling that it will come true for some reasons.
So yeah, when I was in high school and there was this guy who was all over me and he was kind of cute. Honestly, I was not really in to him but since he was a hunk in school so I was thought, why not? After a while, I found out that he was a very nice guy and yeah, I have to admitted that I was falling for him afterwards. At that time I thought that he was going to be the one that I was looking for. But of course, I was wrong. It was only my puppy love after all.
Then when I was in my University, I was fell in love with my classmate and seriously, I was really into him and I really thought that he was the one. Or maybe I was hoping that he was going to be the one. But again, I was wrong. We were not even made it to our first year. After a while and experimented with some short relationship here and there, I met a guy who is really every parents dreams and he was my senior in University. My mom fell in love with him right away when I first introduced him to her. So once again I thought my searching of true love was ended here. But once again, I was wrong. We did make it to our fourth year but it didn’t stop me from leaving him since I didn’t feel any strong connection with him. I have got a feeling that I liked him just because of my parents love him and they had a strong hoped for us at that moment.
Then almost ten years ago, I met a guy who again I thought was my true love. And again, I thought my searching for true love was finally ended. Well, we have made it to our tenth year now, and everyone thought that we are perfect together. But I don’t know. Is that really that my searching of true love is eventually ended here? To be honest, I am not sure about it. Because I am just a human being and I sure am still have my desires. But for this moment in time, I really do hope that he is indeed my true love since I felt kind of tired of looking for one.
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Stickwitu

Nobody ever loved me better
I must stick with you forever
Nobody is going to take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to appreciated
I must stick with you, my baby
Nobody ever makes me feel this way
I must stick with you
(Stickwitu - Pussycat Dolls)

My dear friend and I have a conversation a couple days ago about our men. This thing came because of for some reasons, we are in a position where we feel bored with our love life. No, not because of we don’t love our men anymore but simply just because of we are bored. And this situation makes us feeling guilty since they never do anything wrong. But after almost ten years together, we think we have a right to feel bored, don’t we?
Here is the thing, our men are the man of every woman would dream of. Good guy, responsible, loyal, quite good looking, and the most important thing is they are financially settled. So, I know what you guys thinking, what else could we ask for? We knew that we are the luckiest girls in town and we knew that any girl would give up anything just to be in our shoes. But yeah, we can not lie to ourselves and yeah, we are bored. Maybe we are kind of girls who doesn’t know how to thanks for all of privileges that we have got in life, but hey, we are just a normal human being.
Then along came a girl who we knew for quite sometime, who is always said that she is always unlucky in love. Either a guy never take her seriously or just want to play around with her or the worst one is that they all just want to take advantage of her. She was always skeptical when it comes to a relationship and said that all guys are the same. Seeing her in that position wakes us up and makes us realized how lucky we are. Yeah, while most of the girls struggling to find their men, here we are having a steady relationship with an almost perfect gentleman and still bored.
So yeah, this blog is actually dedicated to our men, specially mine. I would like him to know that I now realized how lucky I am and yeah, for sure I will stick with him, I must. I know I never said that I love him lately, but now I want him to know that I do indeed loving him. Still, I feel bored with us but I will stick with him because as the song said, nobody ever loved me better, nobody’s going to take me higher, nobody ever makes me feel this way, I must stick with you.
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While You Were In Bali

This blog is actually a sequel of my previous blog ‘A Time To Remember’. After finished our afternoon wines at a place calls Klapa, we were then headed to a restaurant names Kembang Goela. The place is actually not that big but just perfect. This is my first time here but I strongly recommended this restaurant to anyone who is looking for Indonesian food. Yeah, this is an Indonesian Food restaurant that is so perfect and simply delicious. The menu was so simple, it will not confused you in any way. I really hate a restaurant with so many food choices that drive you to confusing state when it comes to pick what to order. And it was probably because we were so starving after what happened in our previous place (check on my previous blog to know what I mean), that made us finished our meal in almost a split second. Everyone like enjoyed the food silently. It was so nice.
If you are planning to go to Bali for holiday and stuffs, I also suggest you guys to try a coffee shop calls Barocco, right at corner of Seminyak road. This coffee shop is own by an Italian so yeah, it’s an Italian coffee shop with a perfect selection of cakes. Well, the cakes are actually a little bit more expensive compares to other normal coffee shop in Bali, but once you taste it, you will not talk about this issue no more. Because honestly they are so delicious makes you forget about how much you should pay for them! Not to mention their cute bartender that makes all of my girlfriends screamed!
If you are a party goers then I should suggest you to check on a club calls Living Room (see the picture above). For some people, they called the place as a snobby place that full of white linen guys. You know, guys who love to wear white linen shirt and white linen see through pants? But, for me and my friends, this place quite nice and civilized since the club itself is not too big and just nice. The most important thing is people there stay with their crowd and not really bother others. Like I said, they are more civilized. But, if you are prefer a more lively place, then you should check on Déjà vu. This place is in the middle of party scene in Seminyak, Bali and the place is more crowded and yeah, more lively, specially on the weekend. And did I mention the DJ here are the best? Well, at least one of them, who is so cool so when he plays on his booth all of the girls went nuts. One of the girl I know said that she doesn’t have to be drunk as a skunk just to be dancing around like one when he played. Crazy? Exactly!

And the party does not end up there, oh no, not yet. Every time you go out at night in Bali, the last stop has to be the old crooner 66 Club. This club so famous, people even said that you haven't been to Bali yet unless you have been there. So yeah, this place is a must! Well, actually I don't really like this place anymore compare to the first time I came to Bali and went in. Recently, there are so many annoying people over there and the atmosphere is not the same anymore. But yeah, what can I say, this place is an old crooner that refused to retired.
So guys, those are some places that you should visit while you were in Bali. See you in the island of God guys!!!
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A Night To Remember

If you are planning to come to Bali, the island of God, then you have to check this place out. It calls Klapa, in English means Coconut. This name is probably has something to do with its location which is at the beach, Dreamland beach that is. First when my friends talked about this place, I was kind of okay. First because of its location is too far away, puts me a little bit off since as a normal girl I am useless when it comes to find a secluded place like this. Yeah, the place is in the middle of nowhere. And it took like almost an hour to get there from my normal hang out place. For me, it means miles away.
But yeah, since this is a new hang out place then of course my friends and I want to check it out. So here we are, luckily we have got a friend who is local guy who understand the place more than us. So yeah, we were there yesterday and it was cool. This place owns by the late Indonesian former dictator’s youngest son so go figure, how beautiful the place is. And it’s not even 100% ready yet. The lounge is already there but the club is still under renovation. The view was fantastic, too bad the weather was not so good yesterday so we could not get the beautiful sunset that we supposed to as everyone told us. But yeah, the place is beautiful and civilized, for sure.
Then we ordered drinks which was a little bit disaster. When we were there, the waiter said that they are having a happy hour so every drink that we order they will give us another drink for free. We were like, cool. So yeah, we were having white wines and just enjoying ourselves. Until half an hour before the happy hour finished, we ordered another drinks then we waited for our drinks with patient. Fifteen minutes passed, still no drinks. Twenty minutes, nope. When we just about canceled our order, then along came the waiter right at the time when they finished their happy hour. What a timing! So yeah, they said we didn’t get any free drinks with this order since the happy hour was finished. We were like, who cares? We were not there for any free things. But their trick was so low. Seriously, we just wanted our drinks and get out of the place since we were planned to have dinner at Kembang Goela restaurant which is another hour drive from that place. So yeah, we don’t care about free drinks but we do care about our belly and we were starving after those wines. But if we allowed to give a little advise, please don’t do that trick on any of your customers, it was so cheap and not cool at all. Specially when someone order wines which only need your bartender to pour it from the bottle to a glass, even an amateur can do it in five minutes. But half an hour? Just to avoid happy hour? It’s pathetic! Come on, not suitable for an exclusive place like yours.
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Exit Permit

We were as one, babe for the moment in time
And it seemed everlasting that you will always be mine
Now you want to be free, so I’m letting you fly
‘Cause I know if my heart, babe our love will never die, no
You’re always be part of me
I’m part of you, definitely
Girl, don’t you know you can’t escaped me
Oh darling, ’cause you’re always be my baby
And we’re linger on
Time can’t erase the feeling this strong
No way, you never going to sack me
Oh darling, ‘cause you’re always be my baby
(Always Be My Baby - David Cook)

I was listening to the song above on my car stereo while driving to work and something just hit me on the head right away. Yeah, why can’t anyone (I mean men) said that to us (I mean girls). The thing is, every time my friend and I plan to go out at night, we always have to ask permission to our men. That was okay actually if they can understand us and let us go with pleasure. But no, they were always like asking so many questions, and set the time for us to go home. How not cool was that? One day my friend asked our other friend who is Japanese girl if she has to ask permission to her boyfriend first if she wants to go out at night. And she looked at us with a funny look and said that she will tell her boyfriend that she wants to go out but not asking for his permission because after all, she still has her own life even if she is indeed with him at the moment. We were like, exactly! That is what we think as well, but not according our men!
So yeah, whenever we were out we were like checking our watch every minute and that was so irritating! My man actually is not too bad because I sometime still can negotiate with him and he is actually a cool guy who used to go out a lot. So he was kind of understand why I still want to go out with my friends. But my friend’s man, Gosh…he was like calling or texting my friend to check on her like every minute even if we go out during the day! That is why my friend and I sometime did not answer our man’s phone calls when we were out together. Because we knew what is going to happen. They were like asking us where we were, who we with, what time we will be home, those kind of question that made us feel like aaarrrggghhh! Then yeah, we prefer not to answer their phone call because whether we talk to them or not, they are still going to get angry and there still will be arguments later or so why would we ruin our day out with that? Why not just wait until we were home and face it afterwards?
My friend and I had a serious conversation about this one day and we were like yeah, if a guy love you like he said he does, he should be trust you enough to let you go out with your friends and just have fun, right? Because he knew that you will always come back to him since you are always be his baby, right? Yeah, and if you determine to leave, he will not standing your way, right? Because he knew that you will always come back, right? And yeah, we do like partying still. There's nothing wrong with that, right? Come on guys, ask David Cook! He’ll tell you!
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My Birthday Bashed

As you guys know, last week was my birthday and I celebrated it with my closest friends. My birthday was actually on Wednesday but because of it was midweek then my friends and I decided it to celebrated it on Friday night with a single party. Yup, no partners allowed. On Friday morning when I woke up, I was so grateful that the sky was as blue as the ocean but it was almost ruined since my friends Ardi who came from Sumatera stuck in Jakarta airport as his flight delayed because of bad weather over there. So yeah, I have got to change my dinner reservation from eight o’clock to nine thirty at night. But it was perfectly okay since my other best friend had to take care of her sick kid first. And out of sudden my car broke down on my way to the restaurant, luckily I was with my friend at that moment so I wasn‘t so much in trouble after all. Yeah, what a night to remember and I was so happy that no matter what, but dearest friends still made it to my party. I love you guys!
So yeah, the party started at Gusto restaurant. It’s a Spanish restaurant and the food was nice, the wine was also nice. Not perfect but just nice, and that is what I like about this restaurant. And the ambience is also nice, not too busy nor too noisy like any other restaurants around it. Well, maybe it is because of this restaurant not as cheap as any other restaurants nearby but who cares, I love this restaurant and wanted my friends to love it too.
After dinner, we were continued to a club called Living Room. The club is not a big one but it was perfect and we love this club. The crowd in this club are more civilize than the crowd in other club. Not too many annoying drunken men who are normally tried to approached you in the bar or something like that. No, we don’t like that. And when we all started to feel something, yeah you can said drunk, we moved to other club called déjà vu that a little bit more pumping up during the wee hour. Oh yeah, did I mention to you that we were going to party all night long? Like until morning? Come on guys, it’s my birthday! So yeah, we stayed out until half past five in the morning then we had to admitted that we all getting tired. So, home? Definitely! Thank you guys, for making my birthday so perfect. I will never forget it, you guys rock!!!
^_^

Wake Up And Smell The Coffee

I was hosting a pool party at my house two weeks ago when my dear friend Natasha (of course it’s not a real name, are you kidding me?) cried her head off when she talk about her boyfriend. Here’s the story, last year she met a guy who was literally crazy about her. Oh yeah, everyone can see that from a mile. The way he looked at her, the way he kissed her, so crazy about her. And so does she, crazy about him and feel like he is the best man in the world. Every single day for these last one and a half years, all that she talked about was her boyfriend, Kevin (yup, also not a real name). Kevin this, Kevin that, Kevin said like this, Kevin said like that, you know, those kind of things that make you want to puke. But honestly, we are all happy for her as she deserved it. So yeah, it was kind of surprising for us when she started crying. She said that her boyfriend hardly pick up her phone call lately, said that he was busy but always has time for his best friend, a girl named Mariska (hu-um, not a real name for sure). She said that he even asked her to move out of the house that they share together because of he needs space. Say what?
First, my other girlfriends and I were speechless. Nope, not because of we did not believe what we heard, but mostly because we were hated it seeing her crying over something like that. Seriously girl, that is the sign that he is just not that in to you. So for us, the only thing that you should do is leave him! He really does not worth your tears. But, how do you tell that to someone like Natasha? She is a kind of sensitive girl who has a real shallow thought about man. She really depends on her man, like life is nothing without him. And in the other hand, she does not have any job and place to stay because of her once called a best boyfriend in the world, told her that she doesn’t have to work, that he would take a good care of her. Such a bullsh*t!
So, that was the story of my friend Natasha. And the reason why I wrote this story here is because I really want her to wake up and smells the coffee. Come on, if a guy says something like that, it means he wants to brake up with you but doesn’t know how to say it to you. Need space? Who is he kidding with? If a guy says that he needs space, if a guy never answer your phone, put you at second place after another girl who he claimed as his best friend, that means that he does not enjoy your companionship anymore, means that he had enough of you, so leave! World does not end just because of your guy said that he needs space. Beside, it will makes you feel better if you are the one who leave him rather than he becomes the one leaves you. And that is the truth, trust me!
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Please Forgive Me? (An Open Letter To My “Holiday In Goa”)

Dear…
I know it was kind of weird writing a letter to someone who actually I can see at anytime, but you know why I do this. Oh yeah, you sure do. I know how upset you are with me at this moment and I don’t want to make it even worse. Beside, you know that I am not good orally. The thing is, since the first time we met, I knew that I would never leave my man for you, ever. But my mistake was giving you a false hoped that drown me to an unfinished regret. I am so sorry for that, I wished I could undo the situation between us, but thing has done and the wound is already there and I do feel responsible for all of that. For those, I apologize to you.
My Dear…
Maybe you hate me for everything that I have done to you but deep inside my heart I believe that what happened between us gave us some lessons about love. And I have no regret what so ever for that. Because hey, what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger, right? I do feel stronger now and I believe so do you. I pray for you every day, so that you will forgive me and I know you will find someone who is better than me. Someone who cares enough about you and willing to spend the rest of her life with you. But not me. I have my own life and you came at a wrong time. I wished that you came to me nine years earlier, when I was still looking for my man. I wished that God has a different plan for us. I wished that we didn‘t fall that far…ah, there are so many wishes in my heart at the moment, but what for? It will not change anything.
My love…
I am sorry that I love you, but not as much as I love my man. I am sorry that you found out about it in an awful way. I never meant to hurt you since it hurts me even more, but it happened in a way that I never plan before. But I am glad that finally you see who I really am and I hope with time being you will accept it. I am not the girl for you. You won’t find what you’re looking for inside me. I am too selfish and too ignorant for a sensitive guy like you. Since the first time we met, I did tell you about this, remember? But you were never listen to me. You thought maybe your love could changed me, but no. I was too stubborn and you have all the right to give up now.
My Dearest…
Now that it’s all said and done, I hope we can fix the thing between us in a good way. Please don’t hate me for this and please forgive me for all of the dramas between you and me. I took all the blame for this because you have done nothing wrong. It was all on me. As much as my negative side but I am not afraid of admitting my fault and I won’t be ashamed to apologize to anyone. So yeah, I am sorry that it was ended like this. It’s not something that I deliberately do but I am sure that God has something to do with all of these. I still love you but it’s in a different way now. I hope we still can be friends…
Love,
^_^Dewi
(Dewi wrote this letter as a reply for a phone call from her ‘Holiday In Goa’ two days ago)