Deeply In Love (A Poem)

When I talk about you, I talk about love
When I think of you, I think about love
When I look at you, I can see love
When I touch you, I can feel love
When I dream of you, I dream about love
When I smile to you, I am smiling to love
When I kiss your lips, I am kissing your love
When I hold you in my arms, I am holding your love
When I tease you, actually I am teasing love
When I beg you, I am begging for your love
When I call your name, I am calling for love
When I whisper in your ear, I am whispering love
When I cry for you, I am crying for love
When I am happy for you, I am happy for love
When I am sad because of you, it must be because of love
When I am down because of you, I am down for your love
When my head spinning around, I must be crazy for your love
When my heart braking into pieces, it’s only because of love
When I can not open my eyes anymore, that must be because I can not see your love anymore
Because darling when I die, I am dying for your love
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Missing You Like Crazy (A Poem)

So many nights I’ve tried to sleep alone
Without you, not even your shadow
But so many nights I ended up in tears
Because it was you that I always wanted, only you
So many mornings I woke up by myself
My bed felt so empty without your warm body in it
There’s no strong arms holding me, not even in my dreams
So here I am, open my eyes just to find my loneliness
So many days passed without you walking by my side
Without your hand holding mine
Without you leading my steps
So many sadness I felt inside my chest
How many times I’ve been thinking of calling you
But I knew that you won’t be there
I knew that you won’t be there to answer me
So I just let go all of my sadness, just let them go
Now that you have gone
I can tell you that I miss you like crazy
I can tell you how much you mean to me
I can tell you how I shouted your name in my dreams
Now that you have gone
I can show you what love means to me
I can show you how much I miss you
I can show you how much I need you
Now that you have gone
The feeling of missing you tearing me apart
I can feel all the regrets in my heart
For not telling you that I love you when I have a chance
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To My "Holiday In Goa"

A Little Thing Called Love

When you hear someone talk about love, what is your definition of that word? One result of the mysterious nature of love is that no one has ever, to my opinion, arrived at a truly satisfactory definition of love. M. Scott Peck, M.D, the author of New York Times Bestseller book’s The Road Less Traveled define love as ‘the will to extend one’s self for the purpose of nurturing one’s own or another’s spiritual growth’. Deep, eh? Let’s talk about that meaning now.
First, it may be noticed that it is a teleological definition; the behavior is defined in terms of the goal or purpose it seems to serve-in this case, spiritual growth. Second, it may be noticed that, as defined, love is a strangely circular process. When one has successfully extended one’s limit, one has then grown into a larger state of being. Third, this unitary definition of love includes self-love with love for the other. Since you are human as I am, so to love humans means to love myself as well as you. Fourth, the act of extending one’s limit implies effort. Love is not effortless, to the contrary, love is effortful. Finally, by using the word “will” attempted to transcend the distinction between desire and action. Those are according to a Professor’s way of thinking and interpretation.
Now, as a practitioner of love in day to day life, what do you think of love? What is your interpretation when you hear someone say the word of love? As for myself, I have no idea. I can say a nice and beautiful words about love at some points, but in another time I can also say all the ugly words about love in my own interpretation. One think for sure, love is a pretty thing with a not so pretty consequences. Every time you fall in love, there is a risk of broken heart at the end of it.
The myth of romantic love tells us, in effect, that for every young man in the world there is a young woman who was “meant for him” and vice versa. But that tale does not always come true. When we meet the person whom we are intended, recognition comes through the fact that we fall in love. We have the person for whom all the heavens intended us, and since the match is perfect, we will then be able to satisfy all of each other’s needs forever and ever, and therefore live happily ever after in perfect union and harmony. Should it comes to pass, however, that we do not satisfy or meet all of each other’s needs and friction arises and we fall out of love, then it’s clear that a dreadful mistake was made, we misread the stars, we did not hook up with our one and only perfect match, what we thought was love was not real or “true’” love, and nothing can be done about the situation except to live unhappily ever after or get divorced. That’s not a myth nor a tale. That is life.
So yeah, I guess there are so many misconceptions about love in every level. But the most important think to know is, you can interpreted love with your own words, but love itself can not be describe by any words. Love is sometime a feeling, sometime an action, sometime nothing at all. That was my interpretation of love. You don’t have to be agreed with me, though.
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Source : The Road Less Traveled, A New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck, M.D

Love Triangle (A Poem)

When you said you love me
Does that mean that you only love me?
Does that mean that you always love me?
Does that mean that I am the only one?
When I said I love you
Doesn’t mean that I only love you
Doesn’t mean that I always love you
Doesn’t mean that you are the only one
When you said you love me
Do you really mean it?
Do you also mean that you love her?
Do you also mention her name in your heart?
When I said I love you
I mean I also love him
Because he was already here before you
And my heart is actually belong to him
When we said the word of love
We knew that we never mean it
We knew that our hearts are belong to someone else
But we said it anyway
Because when we said the word of love
We never care about anyone else
We only care about us and our feeling
The beautiful feeling inside us that drive us crazy
Bali, April 16th, 2009
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Life Is Beautiful

If you ask me when is the happiest moment in my life, this time probably it is. I was just came back from an afternoon/evening coffee with my dearest friends and love every minutes of it. Here is the thing, my lovely dearest friends (blessed them) are the coolest people in the whole world. And the most important thing is they are always make me laugh and forget all of my problems (yeah, like I have any!). Seriously guys, I don’t mean to make anyone jealous, but my life is so beautiful surround by so many beautiful things around so many beautiful people. Every day was like breakfast, go to my shop to meet my friends, having lunch with them, afternoon tea/coffee, then go home to my man. What a life, eh? God must love us so very much!
Last weekend, we felt like partying after three weeks staying in doing nothing, so what did we do? We asked our dear friend who lives in Jakarta to come to Bali and partying with us. Yeah, when it comes to entourage, we were kind of picky-picky. You know, we don’t want any uncool people around us, ruin our night out. Hey, it’s not like we go out every weekend, you know? Then why we want to ruin it with some retards?
Let me tell you a funny story about our night out last weekend. When we were finished and felt kind of tired then we decided to went home. I asked my friend Ade to drive me home since I was kind of washed out and don’t really think that I can drive any car at that point. So yeah, he drove me home just half way down to found out that I left my house keys in my other friend’s car. Don’t even ask, I was just so ignorant and careless, well, that is a typical of person I am anyway. But, to drove back from my house was a wasting time so we were like sat down outside my house waited for my man to wake up so we can come in. Luckily, I have couches outside so that we can put our self to rest since it was like six in the morning. But still, it was a very good night and I will remember it for the rest of my life. Thank you guys for making my life so beautiful and colorful, you are my very good friends and I love you all. You guys rock!
“To All Of My Dearest Friends, You Know Who You Are!”
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The Sweetest Memory (A Poem)

Here I am, nothing without your love
So screwed and broken heart
From your love that has gone
Leaving me here all alone
But there is something that you left behind
Your kisses are still pretty much in me
Your smiles are still in my mind
Your sweetness is still follow my steps
There is nothing to replace all of those
The memories are too sweet too just go away
Our love is too strong to just disappear
Even our arguments are too good to be just forgotten
So my love, I let you stay in my heart
Right next to the sweetest memory about our feelings
Together with the beauty images of our love makings
Underneath the shadow of your face when you look at mine
But my love, promise me that you will stay there, just there
Because I still need you there, just right there
And I promise that I will never let go
If you promise not to fade away
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To My "Holiday In Goa"

Is It The Driver Or Is It The Car?

Did you guys watched the Australian Grand Prix (yeah, of course am talking about Formula One, what else?) a couple of weeks ago? What a big surprised that Jenson Button finally got his first position on the race and the qualification. I am so happy for him since he is indeed my second favorite driver after Juan Pablo Montoya, so that’s mean that he is the only driver that I wish to win the races since Montoya left the Grand Prix sometimes before. So yeah, I am so thrilled about his winning last time and even more thrilled when I found out that he was also won the pole position on Malaysian Grand Prix today, but as a fan of Formula One, one question pop up in my mind. If Button, who was never been in any pole position for quite a while then suddenly became a champion, was it because of his driving skills were improved or because of something else? The car, maybe? Oh yeah, did I mention that Button was in Honda Team before together with Rubens Barrichello. But started on the beginning of this season, Ross Brawn who used to be the brain of Ferrari Team, joined the team and used Mercedes engine for their cars so that the team now calls Brawn Mercedes.
Back to the race, I used to think that the race is all about the driver because they are in fact control the situation. I think many people thought the same and we sometime forget about the brain behind the race itself, which is the manager of the team who is control everything behind the scene. So yeah, as much as I love Button, but I think his driving skills were still the same. I mean, he is indeed a good driver but the whole team should took more credit of his winning, specially Brawn. He is a very brilliant man of the machine. And I am not joking, remember how good he was with Ferrari last time? Thanks God, he left. Yeah, I don’t really like Ferrari, well, it’s not like what you guys thinking. I just don’t like a particular retired F1 driver who is so connected with the team, and yeah, he is a German guy! Do you want me to mention his name? Okay then, Michael Schumacher, there you go! Hey, I told you that I am a big fan of Montoya, aren’t I? I have to hate Schumacher for that, hah!
So yeah, it is about the combination of the elements in the team itself that make the victory. Good driver, good technicians, good manager, and good luck. Those are the combination that I think for this season owns by Brawn Mercedes team. Go Brawn..! Go Button..!
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So He Wears Make Up, So He Kissed A Guy, So What?

Last couple of weeks Adam Lambert became a phenomenon in the world of entertainment with his singing sensation and gothic style of fashion. Many girls think that he is hot, including me. In these last couple of weeks I have seen many of videos of him and his entourage in YouTube showing some controversial pictures. One of those was a picture of him tongue lock with a guy followed by a question “Is he gay?”
Well, some of those pictures probably drove you to a conclusion that he indeed is. Like those pictures of him with full make up, you would probably thought that he is a drag queen or something. And also those pictures of him with his pals who yeah, look like a bunch of queers. But let me ask you a question? Does that even have anything to do with him being hot and super cool? After all, he is still a great singer and a brilliant performer, isn’t he? Of course he is. And being gay has nothing to do with that. There are may of great singer who is gay in this world, let say Elton Jon and George Michael for example, they are in fact one of the best in their world.
I know, this controversial issue maybe came from all of those guys who is probably jealous of Adam’s success on stealing girl’s attention. Oh yeah, as a girl I am very sure of this because as girls we are normally don’t really care if a guy is gay or not, but if he is hot then he is a hot guy. Period. If he is indeed a gay then we want to be his friend but if he’s not, of course, we would love to be his girl for sure. And yeah, we don’t really care about his sexual orientation. So yeah he wears make up, so yeah he kissed a guy, so what??
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April Fool’s Day

Do you believe in April Fool’s day? I wasn’t, until last year. Let me tell you why, last year I went to Jakarta right at the end on month of March for some business trip and supposed to come back to Bali on April 1st which was an April Fool’s day. I never thought of that at all in my mind. In fact, I never believe in the day and thought that it was only a joke. Yeah, me and my skeptical way of think.
So yeah, I was in Jakarta for some business but the people that I should met turned out got some serious problem with his heart and had to stay in the hospital so that our business meeting was canceled. I went to my Securities Company instead, well, at least I could maintain my shares while I was there, right? Wrong. Here is the thing, I went to the Stock Exchange Building to meet my broker and I did but at the same time the computer system in the building went bonkers so there wasn’t any chance for me to check on any of my shares. Bollocks!
So the next day, which was April 1st, I went back to Bali empty handed. At the airport I had this feeling that something was not right. I felt like something is going to happened but yeah, I was kind of ignored it since I didn’t believe on the day after all. Get in to the plane, everything went very well, until the stewardess started to checked on the passengers and noticed that there was an old, weak, and sick old man sat on the emergency exit seat. According to flight regulations this thing not supposed to happened. For some reasons, some stupid people in the check in counter let it happened. What an idiot!
Then of course, the stewardess asked him to moved so the plane could take off. But yeah, typical old people who think that he is okay and you know, when you reached a certain age period you would back to act like a little kid again. And that was what happened with him too, he refused to moved so that the plane stuck in the airport because obviously we can not fly until the situation clear. Regulations, remember? The daughters of the old man tried their best to pursuit their father to moved but couldn’t do any better. They even asked all of the passengers to helped them by leaving the plane and pretended that our plane was broken so that we had to change the plane just to make him get up of his seat, but nah, he didn’t move a muscle. So here we were, stranded in the waiting room at the airport, waiting for him to got out of the plane. And guess how long it took? A solid two and a half hours! What a silly joke for April Fool’s Day! And did I mention that the day was Tuesday? Indonesian believes in this superstitious thing about Tuesday as the bad luck day. That’s why most of Indonesian don’t do any business deal or travel journey on Tuesday. Heaven forbid!
So guys, it’s totally up to you to believe or not to on this thing, but anyway Happy April Fool’s Day everyone!
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Happy Nyepi Day

Today is a Nyepi Day in Bali. Nyepi means quiet in English. Actually Hinduism celebrate their new year today. As for celebration and part of tradition, they celebrate it with four things that they should not do which are not lit any fire, not leaving the house, not doing any work, and not having any entertainment. With all of those, they believe that they will be reborn as new human with new soul.
For non Hinduism who live in Bali, this celebration became a little bit weird. Most of them check themselves in a hotel because of they can not use any electricity at home. Some of them even leave the island to avoid this day. Well, actually you can use electricity, as long as you cover all of the window with dark shades so that the lights that you use inside the house will not get through it. But maybe for some people it is too much to stay at home for twenty four hours, using as small lights as you can and trying not to make any noises.
This year, for the first time in my life in Bali, I have it at home. And until now half day passed, it was not as difficult as I thought. Normally, I always leave the island to avoid this day. I thought it was going to be a torture for me if I stay at home. But surprisingly I was quiet enjoyed it. I still can swim at my back garden, still can watch television even with a very low volume, still can watch movies, and still can use electricity even only with a small amount. And believe it or not, it was nice to have a day just to contemplated yourself.
Most people thought this day going to be a very difficult day, but one thing that they did not know that on this day Bali can reduce its pollutions as much as 30% of its normal pollutions. Just imagine, no factory open on this day, no car on the street, and less electricity. What a beautiful day. And as for the people, staying at home for twenty four hours straight is not so bad. You can start reading all those books that you never read, watch all the movies that you never have time to watch, and how about spending quality times with your family? Sounds boring? Well, just try it. You will know what I am talking about.
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Please Be Suffer With Me

I had a fight with my man last night over a stupid problem. I wanted to spent time with my friends but he wanted me to come home and had dinner with him. Of course, I chose to be with my friends and yeah, so we had an argument. I was so upset about it then out of nowhere I text my sort of ex boyfriend who is still pretty much in touch with me, as a matter of fact, he still hopes that we can be together again. Because of that, I was thinking that he would probably tried his best to cheer me up. Did he?

For the first half an hour yeah, he did. But after a while, he tried to convinced me to leave my man and be with him again. Oh no, he didn’t say that literally, but he said that I should not come home to my man and if I need a place to cooling myself down then his place is welcome for me. Of course, that was not something that I will do but for a split second it did come in to my mind. Thanks God that my common sense was still pretty much taking control.

When I told my ex that I can’t do that, as a man of course he couldn’t take it. No, we didn’t have any argument because I didn’t say anything back to him but yeah, he did say something that hit me badly. He said that I was an ignorant and selfish human being who has no feeling what so ever. Well, that is true though and I never runaway of those facts. But he did say something else that really kind of wake me up and smell the coffee of how bad I am as a human being. Do you really want to know what did he say?

Well, he said that when I feel something hurting me then I want the whole world suffer with me too. Confuse? Me too. Then here is his explanation. He said that I only think of myself and how I am not supposed to be hurt by anyone. When my man wants me to spend time with him but I don’t want to then I won’t do that without thinking of how does he feel about that. I just do whatever I want to do. But when he is upset then we have an argument, I then come to my ex without thinking of his feeling either. Then when my ex try to help me with what he thought as a way out of my problem, I didn’t do that either. I still come back to my man without any consideration of my ex’s feeling. All that I care is just myself and how the whole world should be suffer with me when I do. I was like, OMG am I that bad? Am I a bad person?

So yeah, this morning I woke up with these thoughts in my mind. I couldn’t sleep at all last night thinking of how could I be that person? I really hate myself now.

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10 Things I Hate About You (Part 2)

I hate the way you speak to me

With your so called self esteem that drive me crazy

I hate the way you ask me a favor

More like you’re giving me an order

I hate when you start questioning me

Makes me feel like a guilty party

I hate when you ask me to stay in

Because I have so many reasons to be out there with my friends

I hate when you are showing your jealousy

It’s not like am cheating on you anyway

I hate when you said that you’re understand me

Because the fact is you didn’t

I hate the look in your eyes when you’re angry

So sharp that could harm me badly

I hate the words that came from your mouth when we were arguing

So definite and all that I can do is crying

I hate the way you wipe my tears when it happened

Because it makes me falling for you once again

But the most important thing is I hate myself

For not having a courage to leave you when am supposed to

Bali, March 18^th 2009

Adam Lambert Rocks!

Did you guys watched the final thirteen of American Idol on telly just now? OMG, I was so blown away with Adam Lambert performance when he sang Michael Jackson’s White Or Black with a touch of his rock essences. He was so cool. Not to mention his gothic style of fashion with his pitch black hair, black nail polish, and black mascara. Seriously, he’s hot! And I am normally not into guys with make up, but this one is different. He is extremely hot!
I was watching him since the beginning actually. Even if Simon did not really like him when he saw him on the audition, well, it was not because of he wasn’t good, but Simon thought that he was too theatrical, but I loved him. He was my idol from the start, and this a little bit unusual for me since I was normally got my idol picked up in the middle round since I need to make sure that he is really good first. But this time I picked him up from the start, that is how good he was.
So yeah, for this season of American Idol, I am so into Adam Lambert. He is hot-hot-hot. And guess what, I was just put my black nail polish on, just like him, hah! I don’t care how embarrassed it was to blog about this, but I’ll do it anyway because I am so in love with Adam Lambert. Even my status in Yahoo Messenger and my Blackberry said so!
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Queen of Hearts Charity Dinner

In conjuction with the International Women's Day which celebrated worldwide on March, 8th 2009, Amazone, all female DJ agency, is hosting a Charity Dinner on Thursday, March 12th, 2009 at hu'u Bar Bali and nutmegs Restaurant where the fund collected from the dinner and auctions (holiday packages) will be put towards improving women's education and living standards supported by R.O.L.E Foundation Bali (http://www.rolefoundation.org/)

Amazone, all female DJ agency, is based in Kuala Lumpur Malaysia, represented by DJ Niina, DJ Supercozy, and DJ Danny Fry colaborate with chef Philip Mimbimi as he amalgamates his 4 course menu at Rp 350,000 nett per person. Dinner guests will recieve a complimentary hu'u sangria upon arival (flyer attached).

Will love to see you there to join us in restoring the world for our future generations.

Love,

--dewi**

Days Of Thunder

For this last ten days, I had to put my beemers in the BMW garage here in Bali because of the problem with its radiator. When I took it to the garage ten days ago, the technicians there said it would take them three to four days to fixed it. I was like, okay. I can deal with three or four days without my car all right. So yeah, I left my car in the garage without any question, all I care was my car getting fixed and it’s in a good hands. Is it?
Nope. After waited for three days I didn’t get any news what so ever. So I thought, okay, maybe tomorrow. Is it? Nope. The fourth day, I still didn’t hear anything from them. So of course, I called them and asked what was going on? And guess what, without any doubt, the head of technicians named Jaka said that they discovered more problems with my car and tried to explained it to me which made me even more confused. So I was like, okay just do whatever you need to do with my car and call me for the estimation of how much it’s going to cost me. He was like, okay.
One week passed, still no news from him. And yeah, we are talking about a BMW garage here in Bali. The garage that supposed to have a perfect services considering the car is quite expensive and luxury. But nah, not here. So after waited for one week then I called him to asked about the estimation and he was like, oh sorry, I forgot. Yeah right, and he called himself a head of technicians? Give me a break! Then after a while he finally got back to me and told me that the estimation was about 1,700 bucks. A quite bit of money considering it was only the problem with radiator from the beginning but I don’t care, I need my car so I was like, okay.
The tenth day my car with them, they were still didn’t call me or anything. And this is so ridiculous. I am not a pushy type of girl but at least they can just picked up their phone and told me when can I get my car back, but they didn’t. So yeah, I called them again yesterday and guess what my car was ready, surprised-surprised! But the bad news was their estimation was wrong and I ended up paying them closed to 2,000 bucks but I don’t really bother. I am so happy that I got my car back until I was going to go home from my shop and my car would not even started. And we are not talking about the next day after I got my car back, but this is the same day. It was like three and a half hours after I picked up my car from the garage. This is so annoying and ridiculous! I was just thinking where the h*ll did they get these technicians from? Did they even get any training before? So incompetent!
So yeah, now my car is back in the garage. Well, actually after the garage sent their men last night, my car was back to normal and they said it was just a problem with fuel pump which was a little bit dirty but they couldn‘t cleaned it up last night because they didn‘t have any tools with them. They said that I could take my car home all right last night but I don’t want to take any risk so I sent it back to the garage and told them to make sure that every single pieces with my car is okay then I will have it back. And I don’t know how much will it costs me later but I just want my car to be perfect as it was always be. After all, it’s my baby!
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Happy Birthday, Father!

Dear father,
Today is your birthday and I don’t even know what to give you. I realize how I don’t really know anything about you. I spoke to you on the phone a couple days ago, but that was only a formal conversation. We never even share any joke or laugh together. Your military background makes me a little bit uncomfortable to show you any emotion, since you never did it. You seemed like a cool or even cold person. You never kiss us good night, good morning, or congratulate us when we won anything. Everyone said that you are a very good person, but for me you are just my dad. A person who I should respect and obey. The only childhood memory that I remember about us was when you taught me how to drive a car and on our way home you let me drove and I crashed the car. That was almost twenty years ago but it still stays in my head just like it was on yesterday. Your hectic schedule made us met rarely. And even on holiday you prefer going hunting with your friends rather than stayed at home or went picnic with us. All I know that you are a quiet man. When you spent Idul Fitri holiday in my house last time, even then I could not spoke to you comfortably. I felt like there is a wall between us and I never even try to climb it just to come to you. Never. I don’t know why, but one thing for sure that none of us ever tried. We both feel happy with this condition, so be it.
Well father,
Today is your birthday but I don’t know how to show you how much I love you. I adore you as a man, as a father, as a husband, and as a human being. A lot of people look up to you, so do us, your children. I am very proud of you and I hope that you are proud of me too. So, good morning father. And happy birthday to you!
Bali, March 3rd 2009
To My Beloved Father
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Loving You As A Rainbow

Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
For me today you look like a blue
Since today I am pretty much missing you
Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
Yesterday you seemed a little bit yellow
Because yesterday you made me mellow
Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
I hope tomorrow you are not going to be red
Because that means that you make me mad
Loving you as enjoying the beauty of a rainbow
So everyday you will always be pink
Because everyday I am in love with you, I think
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The Toughest Decision To Make

On Wednesday last week, I have got to went back to Veterinary Clinic for my cat, Frosty. His FUS problem was getting even worse. I found him last week with his pupil as small as a stripe line after refused to eat anything for almost three days. I knew straight away there was something wrong with him so I called his Vet.
Today, I went to visit him at the clinic. He was a little bit better and his pupil back to normal. I felt sorry for him seeing all those I.V and catheter tugged in to his skinny body. And it was really broke my heart when he stood up and tried to walk toward me and my man as he probably thought that we came to picked him up and took him home. Oh…I’m sorry baby, it was not the time yet.
After finished cheer him up a little bit, we went to talked with the Vet and the news that we got made me even more miserable. The Vet asked me and my man to started thinking about the worse scenario. Since this is the sixth times he went back to the clinic so obviously this situation is stressful for him as for us. And because of the caused of the disease is still unsure yet so there is no certain treatment can be done apart from a specific diet that he has to do. But, this was not worked on him either as we tried before. So, the Vet asked us to started thinking about putting him down because we have to think about his uncomfortable situation with his bladder that always makes him dripping all over the place and how difficult for him just to do his pee but could not make it. The Vet said, maybe we have to pull him out of this misery and let him go. Or, the other thing that we can do is to do the operation to cut off his penis and make him became a female cat, but that does not make him stop dripping everywhere either and of course it’s going to make him even more miserable. A transsexual operation? I was like, no way, Jose! Not my baby!
As we went back home, my man tried to convinced me that that was probably the best thing to do considering how hard for us seeing him suffered like today. Maybe we have to let him go to a better place where he can get the cure for his condition. But, how could I? He is my baby! And isn’t it true that they said that cat has nine lives? And if this is his sixth times, he still got three other lives, isn’t he? And honestly, how could you make such a decision like that? Gosh, this is going to be the toughest decision to make for me! Help…anyone?
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