I still remember the first time I saw you when your birth mother left you to looked for some food in my old house’s roof. Your meow was the thing that caught my attention as you were never shut up even in the middle of the night, you were constantly screaming. At that point, I knew that you must be hungry and you won’t be quite until someone feed you. So yeah, as you were disturbed my sleep that night, I went up to checked on you and there you are with your so tiny little body, crawled over to my reach, and yeah, I fell in love with you right away. Guess there is a love at first sight after all.
My Dear Frosty,
I know that you were probably thought that am not a really cat person and I admitted that am more like a dog person rather than a cat person. Let me tell you why because this happened way before you were born. More than five years ago, a Scottish friend name Drew gave me a kitten and I named him Daniel. He was a wild type of cat who never enjoy being at home. He was also kind of a leader type of thing as you won’t be surprise seeing him walked around the neighborhood with his chin up and almost ten other cats following him around. So yeah, you can call him a king, the king that is. As a wild cat, he was never at home unless for food and doing his business in his litter tray. What a cute thing he was, spent all day outside but always came home for number one and number two, hah! To make it short, when he was a few months old, I was going for two weeks holiday to Australia and had nobody at home to take care of him, so yeah, I took him to a kennel so I was sure that he would be taking care by trustworthy people. So much for my faith in that matter as one of the guys in the kennel caused me losing him as he left the door opened when Daniel was not even in the cage yet. So yeah, as you guess, he was panicked then took off. I spent two hours looking around there with my eyes soaking wet from my never ending tears but he was gone. Since that, I swore that I won’t have cat as a pet anymore, until that night when I saw you on my roof with your grey eyes that melted my heart like you were never imagine. But you knew for sure that you were nothing like Daniel. You were a house cat who loves sleeping on a sit tee in my bedroom right in front of the telly. Every time you went outside you were always ended up home with some cuts from fighting with street cat. You were almost lose one of your legs once after missing for two days. So yeah, I was never expected more from you like I was with Daniel, but when last year you were diagnosed with Feline Urinary Syndrome which until now still has no cure whatsoever, I was devastated. But all I can do was just pray for you and tried to get you the best treatment that you can get. You do know exactly about this, but still, this FUS thing kept on coming back and seeing you squeezing yourself whenever peeing, was made me feel sorry for yourself. Big time. But as much as I felt sorry for you, still, when the vet mentioned about putting you down, I took it bad time and that was why I was always denied the fact that you were not comfortable with your own condition. I was never wanted to make that euthanasia decision for you, ever.
My dearest Frosty,
You might have been thinking that I wasn’t care about you as I didn’t take you to the vet right away when I realized something not right with you. And yeah, I do regretted it all, as if I took you to the clinic earlier then the vet might be able to saved you because your body might not had that shocked that you had. Instead, I chose to spent time with my friends and my dear baby, am so sorry for that. If I only knew that it was so serious, if I only knew… But a dear friend of mine said that everything happens for a reason, so yeah, I hope whatever your reason was, it was a good one. To be honest with you, for some reasons, I am very sure that you were in a better place now, right next to God. And I thank you for waited for me before you were gone forever. I thank you for giving me time to say how sorry I was for everything. I was so happy that you were die in my arms and our last conversation was something special, just between you and me. I will remember that very moment like forever. And you know what, I was always wondering why did you bring Adam home last time and I guess all of my questions were well answered now. I now realized that you were preparing yourself to leave so that you gave us Adam as your replacement so that my heart won’t brake badly. What a smart thinking cat you were, my baby… So rest in peace, darling. We will always remember you as you were always be in our heart no matter what. Thank you for the best three and a half years you spent with us. And yeah, thank you for not making me pulled that plug for you...
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In Memoriam Frosty (2006-2009)
In Memoriam Frosty (2006-2009)